debt

sucks being in debt, especially in this economy. the timing can't be worst. i hate it. i always put others before me, before i worry about myself. but then now, i can't even support myself, and i feel bad, cuz i always help my mom, with bills and whatever, to the point where i'm in debt now, and its still not enough to cover our expenses. i dont work that often anymore cuz of school. and i know when i finish school i'll be way on my way in getting rid of my debt, but with less hours at work, i can't make enough to get through the months now..its getting too overwhelming..my needs and wants are getting more and more hard to be distinguised from one another..i know everyone sooner or later will have a taste of this awful economy, i'm just trying to figure out how to pull through, i have my friends and fam to support me in all my endeavors. not that i'm saying anyone has it easier than me, but with my dad being laid off for shiiit i dont even remember, been that long already, my mom supports this household of almost 10 heads, it sucks, i feel bad, so i step in with my paycheck to fill in , but then i dont have shit for me to have..i feel so bad asking my mom for 5bucks to buy lunch..cuz i need my last 20bucks to buy gas..FML..

on a lighter note, i've made the attempt to text my bestfriend the other day, didnt go as well as planned, but i was a step..i'm looking forward to patch everything up soon =) later days..