running smoothly

i typed a whole bunch just now, then deleted it..i was insecure on what i wrote, so i rather talk to this person directly to share what's on my mind these past few days. sorry other readers, later days.

happy mothers day

had an interesting night, text messages and tweets all through my sleep, i'd wake up once in awhile to reply to them, haha. its ok though, i enjoy doing so =) anways, i was off today, so that was good, went to church with the familia, then ate at grand buffet. oh man, i sure think i got my moneys worth, i took hella food, hella seafood! mmmm had like two plates of oysters, crab, fish, shrimp, you name it. and dim sum! it reminded me of cyndy, that's why when i was getting food i saw the sign for dim sum, and i was like hey! haha, after eating, we went to modesto's mall, when shopping for my mom. i got her a matching guess wallet and purse. after her, i went shopping for myself, just got a shirt at A&F though..that's all didnt want to spoil myself today lol. after the mall went home, worked on my linguistics paper for a little bit, and right now i'm watching american dad and contemplating on what to do next..later days

am i trippin??

if someone deletes your picture off their myspace after it being there for awhile in a certain album, then all of a sudden, just my pic with this person is deleted and the rest of the pics in that album are gone, and the only reason they give is .. "oh its cuz i was ugly in that pic" and mind you this album has been up for more than month , and this person has the nerve to say i'm trippin off of it!? i was just asking what happened.. daaaaaaaaaa heeckkkkk man.

anyways, my day: saturday morning chores consisted of running errands for my mother dear, picking up food, buying towels at sears cuz the last day sale, doesn't sound much right, but having to do that right when you wake up, and you have to go work in a few hours. i agreed cuz i thought i had plenty of time, but turns out i had to wait for the food to be prepared etc etc. well yeah finally got that done with barely enough time go get ready for work, didnt even have time to eat! got to work, clocked in at 12:25 i think, and i had a group at 12:30 "medication education" group went smoothly, it was just one of those days i felt good after a group. doesn't happen all the time, but often enough to say that i love my job. =) a resident said to me today, i like your groups cuz they keep us mentally prepared. and i was like thanks, i'm glad to have served a purpose here, haha. i love some of my residents. keyword is some. hahah. after work, headed straight home , cuz my auntie was by herself watching my bros and cousin, cuz everyone else took my grandma to the airport cuz she's leaving for the PI .. lucky, i want to go so bad! but its alright, going to vegas at the end of the month, so i'm excited for that =) later days

sleeping beauty

i had the last two days off and back to work today. bleh. my two day break was fun, yet productive. did my laundry on wednesday, and pretty much spent my whole day at home, havn't been at home for like a long period of time lately haha, i've been coming home at different times this whole weekend which has affected my sleeping schedule, but i can't complain, i had a blast this weekend. thanks. yesterday, was my payday, but first i went to class, then picked up my check, then went to the bank to deposit it..didnt want to go home after that, but everyone was busy! cyndy was studying, nichelle was sick, and ginalyn and i was suppose to do something together, but she wanted to wait till the afternoon, so my whole morning was boring, i went home and watched robot chicken ha. that afternoon, met up with cyndy, studied at my house, glad to have amazed her with my ps3 and blu ray, and my dog, and just simply chillaxin on our family couch =) hmm what else, i guess that's it for the past few days, hopefully today will be great. TGIF. later days

robot chicken

i use to say i hate my life often, hate is such a strong word dont you think? more like strongly dislike my life" right? oh well, but i can honestly say that recently i can say the opposite. i can see through ppl's bullshit, i know who my true friends are and its no surprise they're the same friends from the start. and i like how the fact of growing on some of these friendships. yes we knew each other for a long time, but to get to the point, where we just don't care about what the world has to through at us. through thick and thin, we'll always have that special relationship, that only you and i will know. let ppl talk, who gives a f**k. on another note, i love my best, she really cares about me though sometimes most ppl are oblivious to what ever i try to put out, i sometimes really try to make her and whoever understand what i feel.. thanks..

i have a wierd sleeping schedule now, haha, thanks, you know who you are =)

ps. i'm hungry going to go do a taco bell run or something..later days

cheesecake factory!

finally went to the cheesecake factory! didnt have any cheescake though! haha, all good, the food was good, the alcohol was good, haha thanks. but yeah, on the drive home, finally had the talk that i wanted for a while now. it was really nice, and happy to finally clear things up. ppl will talk no matter what, but f**k what you hear, as long as i know what is happening between us, then that's all that matters. like what it says on top of my page..you think you know, but you have no idea. and please please please, dont butt into my personal life, if i'm comfortable letting you know, then i will..i blog here for a reason..dont constantly call and message me expecting to read me like a book. hmmm yeah, i'm in the library right now, just got done uploading pics, you should go comment one or two, or three =)

ps: my car is black not silver! haha oh man that was hilarious.

*sigh*

finally back online! and being able to read her blogs..i'm happy and sad at the same time the past few days. especially after last night, i dont know what to think..i know its hard for me, and i can only imagine if its hard for you to. i honestly respect your views though, of wanting know what's in store for the future, not disappointing your mom, not getting to attached and watch it just get pulled away from right under you. and also my perspective, how i really dont want anything to change either..i LOVE how it is, but there is still the side of me, that want's something more. but scared to directly tell her..i can only think she knows how i feel deep inside. i'm shy, but she keeps me sane. i get comfortable as the mintues past, as the hours past, i get so comfortable. like i told her, i would never see this coming, but thankful it has happened. its like i keep asking myself, should i ask her for just one chance? i vow to not disappoint you. but at the same time i can't ask her that, its going to put so much pressure, and that alone can jeopardize our friendship. and i can never forgive myself if that were to happen..but for now, i'm keeping it how it is..and when she reads this, maybe she can shed more light on it..i'm not however going to get my hopes up..happiness is not to much to ask for, but that's all i want..