my feet are killing me!

haha, thought my title sounds like what a girl would say, but its true! been walking around all day at work today. started work at 3. but before work went to church then the mall as usual on my sundays. at work had a huge debate/arguement whatever you want to call it with one of my coworkers about basketball. it was really loud in the activity room, coworkers were pulling me away, cuz all surprised cuz they never saw me like that, haha, it was crazy, yet fun. just let me get my opinion out, then we all good. the whole kings/lakers issue is old, but never dies, haha. on a lighter note, can't wait to we leave to vegas! about a week to go, so excited, you dont even know. well its really hot, just like yesterday, this weekend has been in the 100s and its only may! june and july will be a b!tch. well i'm a cut this short today, gonna go watch taken on bluray! sweeeeeet. later days

what a week

the past week has been a roller coaster. emotionally and physically. i'm exhausted. i'm relieved that's coming to an end. and happy as well. yesterday we had this even at work, and i had so much fun, i love my coworkers who i'm glad to call them as friends rather than coworkers, not all my coworkers share the same relationship i have with them, and i'm close to a few of them, and i love it. a few days before was my best's 21st birthday, and we went out to celebrate at dave and buster's. at the bar i really opened up to her, and i was good and bad. i said a lot of shit that i really thought i was going to keep to myself , but after saying it made me realize what kind of shithole i was in. she made it clear that i should fix it though, so i tried. i planned everything in my head on what to say and do. DIDNT COME OUT THE WAY I WANTED. i fucked up. big time, i'm jeopardizing a friendship with a really close friend. and the days were counting down where i wouldnt be able to see this person for awhile, let alone if she'll even respond or reply to my messages. but benefit of the doubt, as long as i do what was right, things will come out smoothly. it was hard, but i did respect her wishes. i honestly didnt do what i did to annoy or whatever. that's how i am. i know they might like be known as my bestfriends, but i never opened this up, but i think i can say i have 3 "best" friends, one that is known obviously, and the other two, i can say just unfolded. wether you agree or not, you have become one of my bestfriends now. i didnt mean to give you a certain kind of attention that would of pushed you away. i in fact love to be on my phone, i message the few same ppl daily, i didnt mean anything by it. with that said, i was worried that it was coming to an end. but i know i keep saying this, but i can't stress it enough, that i DO want to start over. i want to push all that shit that ppl talk about, that ppl spread rumors about, fuck all that, and just start over. back to the day where we can just sit down eat yogurt and talk about ethics. as much as i miss all the other stuff. i WANT it to be just like that. a simple close/bestfriend kind of relationship, nothing more nothing less. i'm also glad i went out last night, for your last night. ha. let me tell you, i had soo much fun. young crowd, so i did what i can, lmao. it feels good to get out of your shell though, and just have fun! maybe a month ago, i'd still be the person, who would be sitting down in the corner, drinking soda, and watch everybody have fun, nope, not anymore. i'm excited to just have fun! woohoo! sham woohoo! lol. well i got to get ready now, its my brothers first communion today, and then i have work. later days

running smoothly

i typed a whole bunch just now, then deleted it..i was insecure on what i wrote, so i rather talk to this person directly to share what's on my mind these past few days. sorry other readers, later days.

happy mothers day

had an interesting night, text messages and tweets all through my sleep, i'd wake up once in awhile to reply to them, haha. its ok though, i enjoy doing so =) anways, i was off today, so that was good, went to church with the familia, then ate at grand buffet. oh man, i sure think i got my moneys worth, i took hella food, hella seafood! mmmm had like two plates of oysters, crab, fish, shrimp, you name it. and dim sum! it reminded me of cyndy, that's why when i was getting food i saw the sign for dim sum, and i was like hey! haha, after eating, we went to modesto's mall, when shopping for my mom. i got her a matching guess wallet and purse. after her, i went shopping for myself, just got a shirt at A&F though..that's all didnt want to spoil myself today lol. after the mall went home, worked on my linguistics paper for a little bit, and right now i'm watching american dad and contemplating on what to do next..later days

am i trippin??

if someone deletes your picture off their myspace after it being there for awhile in a certain album, then all of a sudden, just my pic with this person is deleted and the rest of the pics in that album are gone, and the only reason they give is .. "oh its cuz i was ugly in that pic" and mind you this album has been up for more than month , and this person has the nerve to say i'm trippin off of it!? i was just asking what happened.. daaaaaaaaaa heeckkkkk man.

anyways, my day: saturday morning chores consisted of running errands for my mother dear, picking up food, buying towels at sears cuz the last day sale, doesn't sound much right, but having to do that right when you wake up, and you have to go work in a few hours. i agreed cuz i thought i had plenty of time, but turns out i had to wait for the food to be prepared etc etc. well yeah finally got that done with barely enough time go get ready for work, didnt even have time to eat! got to work, clocked in at 12:25 i think, and i had a group at 12:30 "medication education" group went smoothly, it was just one of those days i felt good after a group. doesn't happen all the time, but often enough to say that i love my job. =) a resident said to me today, i like your groups cuz they keep us mentally prepared. and i was like thanks, i'm glad to have served a purpose here, haha. i love some of my residents. keyword is some. hahah. after work, headed straight home , cuz my auntie was by herself watching my bros and cousin, cuz everyone else took my grandma to the airport cuz she's leaving for the PI .. lucky, i want to go so bad! but its alright, going to vegas at the end of the month, so i'm excited for that =) later days

sleeping beauty

i had the last two days off and back to work today. bleh. my two day break was fun, yet productive. did my laundry on wednesday, and pretty much spent my whole day at home, havn't been at home for like a long period of time lately haha, i've been coming home at different times this whole weekend which has affected my sleeping schedule, but i can't complain, i had a blast this weekend. thanks. yesterday, was my payday, but first i went to class, then picked up my check, then went to the bank to deposit it..didnt want to go home after that, but everyone was busy! cyndy was studying, nichelle was sick, and ginalyn and i was suppose to do something together, but she wanted to wait till the afternoon, so my whole morning was boring, i went home and watched robot chicken ha. that afternoon, met up with cyndy, studied at my house, glad to have amazed her with my ps3 and blu ray, and my dog, and just simply chillaxin on our family couch =) hmm what else, i guess that's it for the past few days, hopefully today will be great. TGIF. later days

robot chicken

i use to say i hate my life often, hate is such a strong word dont you think? more like strongly dislike my life" right? oh well, but i can honestly say that recently i can say the opposite. i can see through ppl's bullshit, i know who my true friends are and its no surprise they're the same friends from the start. and i like how the fact of growing on some of these friendships. yes we knew each other for a long time, but to get to the point, where we just don't care about what the world has to through at us. through thick and thin, we'll always have that special relationship, that only you and i will know. let ppl talk, who gives a f**k. on another note, i love my best, she really cares about me though sometimes most ppl are oblivious to what ever i try to put out, i sometimes really try to make her and whoever understand what i feel.. thanks..

i have a wierd sleeping schedule now, haha, thanks, you know who you are =)

ps. i'm hungry going to go do a taco bell run or something..later days