I'm hella full! Me and 8 other of my homies went to Dublin to eat at hooters, and I kid you not, but we had about 500+ wings according to the manager! Haha. Best part is our beautiful sever =] she was Filipino and hella nice. Made our experience even more unforgettable , ok later days haha, I'm waaaay too tired to continue

crestwood xmas party

which was last night..worked in the morning from 9-530 , went straight home to get dressed, looked pretty fly if you ask me ;D had my red longsleeve and tie from Express. haha. picked up my date then headed to the Spanos Reserve. dinner was alright, had a few drinks and hit the dance floor! didnt matter if i was surrounded by coworkers, i danced like i was at the clubs hahah. crrazzzy i must tell you from the reactions everyone was giving me this morning at work! they were like, damn ralph, you were gettin it last night, i dont remember much of the stories they were telling me! hahah. tonight going out again, for a coworkers birthday dinner, its a misaki, and i havn't had sushi in awhile, so im craving some! currently watching the kings game, hope everyone is having a pleasant sunday evening =) later days

best ever where are you??!

where art thou best ever? you havn't posted in hella long, haha, i only follow two ppl ya know, guess i have to text you for your mia-ness haha, jk, i know we've been both busy...

hmmm, dont you just hate when you realize something after a long time of being oblivious, and finally admit to what everyone else has been seeing? in other words, you keep denying what ppl say, and you go your own way, to stick to your pride, to protect your ego, etc etc. and when it finally comes to the light, you're like ohh shit, what was i thinking? yeahhh, who to vent to about that? blogspot =) haha

Family: my family and I have been going through a tough two months now. My mom is sick, and still recovering. I want to thank each and everyone for their love and support as we try to maintain our lifestyle. Our lives have definetly changed.

My best friend Nichello Novelo: i don't care if you no longer wanna appreciate what I've done, or what we've been through. Yes I was a lil bummed on your last post. Made me think. Honestly, whether you agree or not, idgaf what ppl say, I'm still here, never left, never changed, just waiting..

My neighbors Arnold and Yoshi: actually they been more than just neighbors, we been through alot. I know for a fact they have my back in need. I walk in each others house as if it's my own, wether they home or not, we are family.

Ginalyn Santiago: my EBF =] more than a coworker. My older sister figure. She really has taken care of the last two years, no joke. Thank you.

Kayzar Buba and Kate Demesa: and the rest of your cousins haha , we've known each other for a long long time, though we don't see each other as often as when we were younger, I'm thankful for us being able to still KIT

Friends in general: I'm happy to know the ppl I do know. Everyone has made their contribution in more ways then none, thank you

thanksgiving break

should start today, but i have a lab to make up..blah!!

Omgahh, my friend, a really close friend actually, and as a matter of fact, one of my best friends from 4th grade in taylor, found me on Facebook!! I haven't seen or heard from in years since he moved to north Carolina more than what 10,12,13 years ago? Maybe longer! He messaged me saying is this the Ralph from Stockton, Taylor? 4th grade ms mcguckins class? I was like omgahhhhh!? Ahahaha I seen the name, looked at his pics. Excited at the moment, ok bye

Sitting in the cold is not the business. My fingers are freezing as I type this, but I have nothing else to do but be on my phone as I have 10 mins till class starts. So in the mean time, blogging it is! Haha. So this has been another tough month for me. Financially especially. Got get through the tough times, and i know it will be worth it in the end. Keep your head up I tell myself, easier said then done. Later days

100th post!

yayyy mee!! haha

so my neighbor got his house broken into..got me hella heated cuz this block is hella whack, nothing but niggas causing trouble, yes i said it..fuck it. my house got hit 3 times since i lived here. can we afford to move? nope.

mom's doing better, hope she can go back to work next month..really really hope shes 100% back soon, a little here and there worries but not as worst as she was a month ago..

still sick..day number two. i was doing better this morning, but my sniffles came back..guess cuz its to damn cold!

trying to find a friend a car, but hes so damn picky! haha

o0o0 titration labs in chem for the rest of the sem..fun?? we'll see..

just paid for this semester, broke. gotta register for spring sememster tomorrow! wish me luck on good classes and schedule! yyeeeee.. later days

Veterans Day no class , so decided to visit fam in san jose. On my trip I took Yoshi, Arnold, and Monique. We had a great time, haven't had a good whole day in ahwile. Went to my cousins house, ate some pho, had a mini car meet. Ate some more, frozen yogurt, and chilled more before we headed home. Short and simple description but everything in detail is so much more from inside jokes to personal questions and talks in the car ride. Gahhhh I love my friends.

mid mid-life crisis

the holidays are coming up!! yay or nay!? haha omgahhh i have no idea whats in store this year, but im gonna be ready. if it doesn't go as planned, as long as i have my family to celebrate it. lets pray my mom and the rest of the family will be blessed. as well as everyone as elses =)

financial problems left and right, not even funny anymore. debt way over our head, i know im not alone, and hope we can all pull through together. keep your heads up guys and gals. later days

im hungry

i'm craving some taco bell or jack in the box or something..gahh, but i'm broke till friday's pay day. haha so i'm going to just tough it up and eat whatevers in my kitchen! which at most times is nothing!

chemistry is whack, idk why we need it. like when i'm taking care of a patient will i need to know lewis structures? haha i just brought up that topic cuz its pretty easy, everything else is whack!

doing laundry is easy and time consuming

mom is doing better, they increased her leave for one more month tho =/

holidays is coming up and i have no idea how its going to turn out with all the changes

ok , i'm really hungry, haha i'll try to blog later. later days

another week has gone..

this will be a continuation from my last week's blog..my mom is showing signs of getting better..but we all know something is still wrong with her..shes on meds, but i will keep praying as i hope you will also be doing..thank you, love you all for your love and support. later days

i love my mom

for those who dont know..my mom has been sick..its been a week since we took her to the ER , and just two days ago i was deeply afraid she was going to get admitted to a mental facility..and i work at a behavioral/psychiatric facility and i DO NOT want my mom staying there..thank goodness after she seen the psychiatrist she is going to be an outpatient..meaning she can take meds at home..shes steadily recovering..thank you all for your prayers..your texts to see how i'm doing, etc etc..later days..

rain rain go away

alot of ppl like the cold weather..alot of ppl like the rain..i'm the total opposite..why would i like the factors that contribute to national disasters like typhoons and hurricanes etc etc? haha over seas our homelands are being smashed on with all this "rain" you guys love..haha i know i'm a lil overboard just a tad, i just dont like the fact that i cant see the lines on the freeway from driving in the rain..and what's up with all this wind??! bring back the heaaaat! haha ok bye..later days

story of my life

what an interesting end of the week i had.. thursday told this girl how i felt, and yet again was turned down, and she told me to not feel akward when i'm around her..hmm how easy would that be? saturday went out on my date with spica =) i miss her..so we got to catch up as she was in town for the weekend..later that night we went to this party to, and i knew nichelle was going to be there and i was planning to patch up things between us and move forward..didnt go as planned, i left the party 30 minutes from getting there, i told spica i needed to talk to her in front of the house, and told i her had to leave..she understood why, as she seen how we were acting towards each other..silence speaks a 1000 words..so i drove home, on the brink of breaking down again, but f**k that i'm stronger than that, spica told as i left to keep my head up and stop crying, something simple, but coming from her is personal. but as i got home i realized, the fact that i acted like that made me think how much i care about my bestfriend..i'm not giving up, i'm determined to fix this..

on a lighter note, finally installed my foglights on my car..hella jdm status now haha! i kid you not when i'm driving down the road and another tuner car driving the opposite direction sees me, they turn around and stare as i pass by, im looking forward in my shades and use my peripheal vision ;D ohhhh and speaking of my car..on friday gina's brother in law wanted to race me..i was like what the heck, your car is hella fast..he drives a honda s2000..i was like ok we'll go for fun, cuz i like the adrenaline of going fast haha. so went off holman rd going northbound from morada..and at the stop lights we went..he was suppose to givee me two car lenghts, but he went when i went! haha what a cheater..so as we both peeled out, i look to my left as his tires were smoking..i was like daammnn sexy as car haha..and next thing you know, i no longer see him! haha i hella beat him..he mis shifted..haha like i told yoshi who was with me..i dont care if your car is faster then mines, if you dont know how to drive/race then i wil beat you ;D a win is a win..i felt good i just smoked an s2k! later days

yesterday wasn't a good day, maybe today =)

mondays are most of everyones worst day..mostly because of those who have the weekend off and its back to work, and or school. for me it was just school. but the whole morning yesterday was a waste, i missed classed cuz of stupid bs, and i tell you i was hella bored yesterday, the whole afternoon went by so slow, and i was like damnn, i rather be working! that's how bored i was. so me and yoshi found ways to kill time which included driving around stockton wasting gas to sight see haha. after that watched monday night football, watched heroes and studied a bit for my chem test!

today studied this morning in the lounge at delta for this chem test which is tomorrow now..i got work today, so i have to bring my books and study there hopefully its not to busy today

back to my social dilemma..i found out that she may like someone now..see what happens when you wait too long?? damn. i'm not sure though, but this just adds to my constant hesitation and backing off in telling her how i feel, everyone hates the "what if" feeling..so i NEED to tell her asap..but gahhh even if things down go the way i want, at least she knows..later days

october!

sooo its autumn season, time to get out the hoodies! haha, its cool, simple to get ready now, just throw one on, some jeans, and you're set! problem is, i need/want more hoodies now haha, and the problem with that problem is that shoping costs money, and the problem with problem's problem, is that i'm in debt =(

onnnn a lighter note, slowly but surely my studies have been going good, all chemistry is i think about now haha, not. but i'm getting the hang of it! have a test coming up on wednesday, and i'm a be on nerdstatus this weekend..yee.

currently watching the foodnetwork making me hellaaa hungry, boo and i have the sniffles btw..hope i dont get to sick =/ blehh i hate being sick.

stilllll havn't told her how i feel, i get so shy around her! is this a sign to just chill? i'm just afraid if i wait too long, it'd be too late .. gahhh

hmmm what i should make for halloween costume this year..i want to be the twiiter bird! lmao..kk later days..

happy birthday EBF

today worked 9-530, didnt feel like working, but i dragged myself out of bed and headed to work. but it was cool, i slacked at the beginning of my shift, but did hellaaaaa make up work =) finished two of my charts, one late one, and did an early one to! woohooo. and the rest of the afternoon, fingerpainted! haha it was fun. after work headed to gina's surprise birthday thing, got there in time! haha thought i missed the surprise. all good if i did anyways, i was super early for her dinner last night at misakis haha, that was fun to, didnt drink much, had just a few shots of hot sake. hmmm, after gina's i headed to a family party, watched the boxing fight there, alot of ppl said it was boring, it was just slow for me, freaking mayweather hella toyed around withhim, then hella shit talking went down after, can't wait for manny to lay him out! he may be bigger, but manny is quicker! hmm and for some random reason i smell tortillas coming from outside lmao..later days

debt

sucks being in debt, especially in this economy. the timing can't be worst. i hate it. i always put others before me, before i worry about myself. but then now, i can't even support myself, and i feel bad, cuz i always help my mom, with bills and whatever, to the point where i'm in debt now, and its still not enough to cover our expenses. i dont work that often anymore cuz of school. and i know when i finish school i'll be way on my way in getting rid of my debt, but with less hours at work, i can't make enough to get through the months now..its getting too overwhelming..my needs and wants are getting more and more hard to be distinguised from one another..i know everyone sooner or later will have a taste of this awful economy, i'm just trying to figure out how to pull through, i have my friends and fam to support me in all my endeavors. not that i'm saying anyone has it easier than me, but with my dad being laid off for shiiit i dont even remember, been that long already, my mom supports this household of almost 10 heads, it sucks, i feel bad, so i step in with my paycheck to fill in , but then i dont have shit for me to have..i feel so bad asking my mom for 5bucks to buy lunch..cuz i need my last 20bucks to buy gas..FML..

on a lighter note, i've made the attempt to text my bestfriend the other day, didnt go as well as planned, but i was a step..i'm looking forward to patch everything up soon =) later days..

im hungry

i'm feeling for some pho and spring rolls with peanut sauce ;D