nothing much to say

yeah, been a boring weekend..worked since thursday, and last day 2mrw, before i'm off for 3 days..that's going to be so boring haha, lets plan something please! well on saturday it was my cousins birthday, drove to yuba city, then drove back home the next day. it was good to see family again, though they have been beeing asses lately, hope its just a phase though =)

so i didnt get to see her, idk when she's going back either, dont really want to ask cuz she seems so busy, but if she does read this, sorry. i just really miss my friend. just a simple hello and hug would of sufficed.

Circle of Friends

my circle of friends have definetly changed. i'm now hanging out with ppl around my age group and even older. i love it. no time for bullshit from all the lil kids, and not having the obligation of being the eldest in the crowd and having to babysit them. i still have my fun, nothing to serious. i just have my fun in a more mature way now. with that said, my original circle of friends is slowly not being the same =/ and its not because i choose not to make an effort to hang out with them, its just the whole negligence thing. i'm seldom called upon now, and when i find out what's up, i'm surprised. doing shit, i'd never imagine they'd be doing. and i hear stuff, i read stuff, i even see stuff. i'm real disappointed. but i'm in no position to bring anything up, i rather let them see the light on their own, i'm happy with my life right now to be sucked in to their drama. when worst comes to worst my circle of BESTFRIENDS, will always be there, my bestfriends' circle of friends do not overlap, and when they do, i'd be in the middle, and i rather keep it that way. lets see how the rest of the summer goes..later days

transformers (i miss her)

Transformers: Rise of the Fallen may be one of the best summer movies this year! i'll try my best to not reveal any spoilers like who dies!? hurry up and watch it so we can talk about it!! as much as i loved all the action in the movie, during different parts of the movie, i just sat there and thought about stuff..stuff not even relevant to the movie. i sat there pretty much alone, yes i was with my brothers, and my friends were all having a fun time. but needless to say, i was in the same theatre, same screen! more than a month ago was the last time i was at that downtown stockton theatre. i dont want to seem selfish, but i want to express what i felt here. idk who to talk to about it. well here it goes..i felt alone..i had someone with me at the last premeire i was at, and something happen that night that was my first, and that was just sitting there watching a movie with somoenes arms around yours and head on your shoulders. its cheesy, but i loved feeling that for the first time. she was just a real close friend at the time, and she still is. i tried to shake it off when watching transformers, cuz that movie was so loud, action throught the movie..but it was hard, time to time, i'd say "i miss *****" in my head =/

yesterday, worked in the morning, then after work, went home, met up with yoshi then we watched nick and norah's infinite playlist, haha. that movie is funny, and we were bored and he wanted to watch it ok!? i like that movie, its cute. after the movie, chris and mark came over then we heaed to the park to blay basketball , then right before we left we had a 3point shootout, and every miss shot = 5 pushups, haha , i made alot, but missed some to, my arms are still sore right now. after the park, it was like around 9, went home got ready to head to the theatres cuz i me and brothers and friends went to go watch the midnight premiere of transformers!

today i work at 3, so i'm just watching tv and being online all day, as the bum i am. right now watching a very special love. well that's all for now later days.

jon and kate no more!

got up at 845 today, took my sister to run some errands. first i picked up my check at work, and what a bad time to pick it up to, there was a fire drill, so we had to wait while that was over till we left. then we went to the courthouse to pay for my sisters speeding ticket..after that drove to lodi, to drop off my mom's work keys that she left at home. after lodi, drove to island gourmet to get food before work, then dropped off my sister home then headed back to work..and at this time i got to work at like 1220ish, ate real quick cuz i worked at 1230. whoa what a morning eh? hella busy, then went straight to work in the dining room and started passing out the food trays haha..hella exhausted about a few hours into work, just wanted to sleep! i suggested that there should be a nap time group like at kindergarten lol. well that was pretty much my day, right now just chillin in my room watching george lopez and chatting with cyndy on aim. got work in the morning, so i might be hitting the sack soon. later days

happy father's day

yesterday was aleena's luau. i had work in the morning, i switched with gina so she can have it off for her aleena's party. work was alright, nothing to exciting today, but i did learn during one of my groups that the human brain would smell like bleu cheese if you smelt it! ewww grosss right!? haha. after work, went straight home to change into my hawaiian attire, then headed to gina's house. i got there before my sister and brothers, they were still waiting for the cake to be delivered at red ribbon. well at the party, after i ate, all the lil kids played games, and for the adult limbo, i won =) i got scrapes on my elbow from losing my balance cuz it was running down the driveway, after i got up from bending down so low, lost my balance i guess. well all good it was worth the starbucks giftcard! uhm, oh yeah, gina put me in charge of face painting all the lil kids, this was my first time, but i turned out alright, i did my best making flowers and hearts and stars and sharks and all kinds of other stuff, oh and spiders to lol. after all the lil kids went home, all the rest of us were drinking, jelloshots, and other stuff. it was fun, i had fun. oh yeah, during gift opening, after aleena opening a bunch of toys and clothes, she opens my big heavy gift all excited, then finds out its a bookshelf, and goes i dont need this!! =( ha! maaaaaaan! its what me and her mom knew what she needed in her room! ok that's yesterday, went home around 1230 am..

today is father's day, about to leave to church soon, then eat out for a lunch buffet, then idk what after that, ok hope everyone else has a super day, treat your dads out today, later days

Happy Birthday Aleenamadelyn!

today is my ebf's daughter's birthday..i'm at their house right now, and we just got done decorating the cupcakes and brownies i baked earlier today since i was off work. yeah on my days off lately consisted of sleeping all day and baking..haha very fun huh? well back to work 2mrw morning..and we'll go from there..lovin summer so far! i should be going to summer school, but in this case i can save enough money from working all summer for all the fun stuff, like my birthday =) oh yes, idk about you, but i love celebrating my birthday! i know a few and i'm pretty sure theres plenty of more ppl, who think birthdays is just another day, nope not to me, its my day to shine! its your special holiday, it should be a national holiday! haha anways, earlier today i was killing time at the mall while gina wasn't home yet. oh man i spent like $100 bucks shopping around for myself in like an hour and a half lol. i bought a shirt at hollister, pjs and jeans at old navy, aleena's birthdaycard, and my curve cologne at macy's. i was tired of just walking around, so i was just swiping my cards like nothing..someone please take them away for awhile! haha. well gotta go now, i think they going to blow the cake soon, oh and best ever, i'm still waiting for the pic ;D

Ciao Bella

finally! intenet has been down for a couple of days, didnt get to blog lately, sorry, so i'm a try and update here. on wednesday after work, went to ciao bella , this italian restaurant lounge place thingy lol, but of course we were just at the back, by the bar =) i was with janice, and of course my EBF ginalyn, vince, and a few of his friends. specials on wednsedays after 7pm, are 25cent wings and drink specials to! so had a few drinks, and hella wings, had a fun night =) got beat up my gina alot cuz she was hella buzzin, slappin in my face , hitting my head, everything, that's what i get for sitting next to her haha.

thursday, hung out the whole day with EBF again. started around 9 , brought over food to cook for breakfast, then after that, we went to take her daughter aleena for her photoshoot, ran a few more errands, went to the mall to look for a hawaiian polo, oh and i bought scrubs to finally! so when i get off work i look hella legit, and ppl would be like, damn, look at that nurse, lmao! after the mall went back to gina's and helped her with making shrimp lumpia! first time, and i had fun, and i want to start making them to when i get time. gotta peel the shrimp, peel the wrappers, roll it up, then 200pcs later..we realized we still didnt have enough for aleena's party next week, haha, so we took a break, and just watched the basketball game..LA got another steal! bleh!

friday morning worked AM shift. 7-330. work was alright, worked on station 1 the alheizmer's unit. so it was a little more slow paced, especially when i was teaching my classes. the excitment of the day was me and like 4 other coworkers holding down a resident, to give him a shot to calm him down, cuz he was being hella bad. after work, went home, took a nap, planed my sunflower i took from work then washed my car.

San Jose

so i've been in san jose since last night, and ima leave tomorrow morning. just came to visit family since i was off the past two days, wanted to see the cousins. last night got here like around 930, we just chilled at the cousins house playing call of duty all night till like 3 in the morning haha. the next day, ran some errands with ej, got to drive around in the Si! sexy car ;D after the errands went to kat's house to chill before our movie, we watched UP in 3D! cute movie, i think i was one of the loudest laughers in the theatre! haha. after the movies headed back to ej's house chilled again for a sec then headed to the boiling crab! mmmm, hella good and hella messy. i twittered to cyndy, cuz that's who i thought of when i went there, but she didnt reply, guess she's not following me on her phone or something =( that or she's just busy. but yeah, having hella fun here with the family, went to visit my dad to haha, right now just playing more ps3, suppose to go home 2night, but kinda tired, and its late anways so i'll go home 2mrw morning. oh did i tell you, my BE is hella smart ;D

i love my BE

i love my best ever! aka my bestfriend from another state aka the reason she gets up in the morning ;D haha thanks for again for the chat today Princess. havn't had a dilemma talk from my side with you in awhile , so it was nice to , while i was at work wasting my life away just watching white chicks haha. work was still kinda hectic though i was just watching tv, someone called in and so i had to pick up their groups as well, but me and sharon fong held down the fort pretty well, just had to worry about men's support group and bingo =) haha. today ended my work stretch, i'm off the next two days, right now i have family over from san jose, so i got to go now, soo yeah later days

i quit!

last night we had another casino night, haha. this time at a different venue because it was tbag's birthday. as usual i was drinking and smoking black and milds. then a close friend comes, and see's this side of me, and i try to stop but i couldnt =( she tells me she's disappointed and doesn't like this side of me. so i tell her this. when ever i'm drinking, and get a lil buzzed, i get this craving to smoke, for some reason it makes it easier for me to sober up, idk, it might be all in my head but i dont care. its whatever to me. but how did i get started in smoking in the first place? i'm not to sure, i've tried them occasionally when ever i'm like out at the club and just share one. but then recently some shit has been really stressing out. at first it was cuz of a whole lot of shit, then it narrowed down to just one person making me trip out. how would you feel if you have this mentality that nothing will move to fast and you just like how things are flowing, then all of a sudden it picks up, and you're like wtf? didnt they just say they're not going to do this, not have that..blah blah blah, i dont want to get specific. but in a nutshell its like i've been lied to, got slapped in the face, hella contradictive shit blah, i can't even type. I KNOW ITS NO EXCUSE, but i hella just went to the nearest convience store bought some shit, and started smoking cuz i thought it'd relieve my stress, but then i started doing it more often, wtf, it's so bad, i took the last ones i have and my lighter and shoved them to a friend, and told him not to let him give it back to me, i was hella sad and bought to break down last night, i let a close friend down, and so i started texting ebf to come pick me up, but she lives to far now, and i just wanted to go home..i coudlnt take it anymore..and there was this ONE person i wanted to text and vent to, but i'm still hesitant lately to text her, we seldom talk now, and idk why, i'm having fun, she's having fun, i dont want my drama to f**k everything up..so f**k it.. i really hope i dont go back to my bad habits, i really hope i can forgive all those i let down, i say i'm the same person, i just need to prove it now..later days

NBA Finals

currently watching the nba finals, hoping for an upset =)

busy week so far. monday night had a guys night out at my house, in my garage, we were gambling. playing black jack, 5card poker, and texas hold'em it was fun, played till the early morning, dollar bills were flying back and forth during the dice shooting though! haha, i didnt know how to to play so i didnt play that.

tuesday was my evil best friend gina's house warming/blessing. had hella fun that night to, had a few beers, including shotgunning one with the gang, damn, was i buzzed, made karaoke much more fun though! gina and i hogged the mic the rest of the night when it died down a little bit at the end of the party, auntie wouldnt let me go home cuz she thought i was drunk! i was earlier, but its been hella hours! so i just stayed on the couch singing with gina, we were all up on "a whole new world" haha, and then kept exchanging songs after that till around midnight beforei had to go home and take her bros home to.

wednesday night had another jackson night at my house, this time only came up 4 dollars haha oh well maybe i'll be lucky again tonight =)

yeeeaaaahh, i'm pretty sure i have lots more i'm leaving out, but long story short, my summer has been to a good start =) i'm having so much fun, keeping my mind off things, honestly occasionaly i think about stupid shit, shit i f**ked up with, shit i wish i can have done differently, but in the end i can't complain, gotta live life the way it's handed to you..later days