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today, woke up around 10am, texted my BE to see if she was doing better, she was having a bad night, havn't slept on the phone in awhile..it was nice. arnold and his brother and sister came over, we just chilled in the living room then we decided we wanted to eat something, made a quick run to the grocery store cuz we had baked potatoes! mmmm. i love baked potatoes! and this was the first time i made them at home..turned out yummy, i put hellaaa sour cream haha. after i ate, had to get ready for work, went to work, and today was a pretty chill day, had bible study class, and bingo today. did some paperwork. after work went to in n out, just got done eating it, now just chillin in my room watching comedy central =) later days..

i do not use the label "bestfriend" loosely, if i claim you as my bestfriend, then best believe that i mean it..you weren't there that night, you DO NOT know what happened, yes i was wasted, but i'm not stupid..i love you, but you have to hear me out..

My 22nd Birthday

so starting with 12am...

first set of texts were from nichelle, about 50+ of the same texts saying happy birthday sucker! =) or something in that nature, followed by a few more close friends, and some friends i was surprised stayed up to text me at 12! thanks guys, oh and the only phone call i got was from angelyn, my (ex) ex in parenthesis, haha ask me why..and thanks to cyndy who waited till 3am ;D that's a first ahah, and the longest text i got to. and thanks to princess for the LATEST text, haha, there were some after her, but damn, i was expecting an ealier one, haha, jk! i love you!.

woke up around 8am, told nichelle and arnold to get ready cuz they wanted to come with me to spend my day at san jose till my dinner at 8 at BJ's. got to san jose at around 11, picked up angelyn..and spent the day at santana row and valley fair mall. *sigh* as much as i hate admitting it..but i do miss her..i just happened to get the short end of the stick, and someone else got to her before i did..i was picked second..for awhile i was all butt hurt..but its been a year, and since i still wanted to maintain a nice relationship with her, i asked if i can hang out with her..so while we are the mall and urban outfitters at santana row, when ever we were alone, (while nichelle and arnold wandered off) i honestly got butterflies, and was super nervous around her, especially in the fitting room at Urban..she was dressing me, and i was shaking..omg, im not sure why..but all i can say the song "weak" came into mind LOL. she's not with you anymore ralph..does she feel the same? does she miss me to? all these questions running through my head..and during the whole time, she was so flirty unless im reading her wrong? but damn..i was like, damn, i really do miss her, i didnt tell her anything though..

on the way home, i told the ppl in the car how i felt about my ex, they told me its ok to miss someone, but just keep moving forward..etc etc. when we got back to stockton, barely had time to get ready and head to BJ's for my dinner..damn, when i got there long story short, i was already drunk within 30 minutes of being there! i downed 3 AMFs each in like 15 seconds or less..i have video to prove it!! it was so bad, i didnt even get to have dinner! they took me outside, cuz i was yacking GAHHHH!! i was crying cuz i felt so bad that ppl were in still inside and i barely got there, i was crying out for nichelle, she wasn't there at the time cuz she had a family thing to do, and was going to show up later..but i was REALLY crying , yelling her name, "someone call nichelle pleeeaase" so they get a hold of her and tell her that i'm crying for her, she comes , takes me home..i really dont know what happened after that..threw up more at home, all the way to the next morning..ended up calling in for work..blahhh!!

today, after being sober enough to reply to everyones myspace and facebook greetings haha, which i barely did just now..but during work, i couldnt help to think about that day in san jose..i told angelyn how i felt, and how i couldnt make it to her party tonight, cuz i dont want to go there, knowing that i'm not with her anymore.. she understands completely..i dont blame her..but can i blame myself? i've just been through alot with her..more than even my official ex gf, i dont even KIT with her, but with angelyn, its diff, i should hold this grudge on what she did, but i honestly want a healthy relationship, she's still there when i need her..

instead of taking a nap when i got home, arnold and yoshi asked to come over, so we're just chillin..i have to get ready soon to go to my grandpa's prayer..he past yesterday =/ dont really want to talk about that but yeah..crazy few days huh? later days..

iPhone 3G s

yeeeeeeeah buddy, got myself my birthday present today, haha the new iphone =) i love it. i wasn't really going to get it, but shhiiiit, i felt like spoiling myself haha.

last night, i was off, just pretty much spent my day roaming around stockton with my bestfriend. ate sushi and all that good stuff. then later that night, went to a bon fire, it was alright, nothing to exciting watching wood burn though ahha, went home around 1am, slept and got ready for another fully day off haha

today, didnt do much either, again more stockton roaming, but this time with my neighbors yoshi and arnold, got my iphone, ate at mickey d's and i just got home from the park. my birthday is in less than 3 hours! yeeeeeeee!!

Wizards on Deck with Hannah Montana

too lazy and hot to thoroughly back track and blog about the last few days. sorry haha.

today met up with my EBF gina and had lunch, then ran a few errands before we headed home. we were suppose to go out again tonight to the club, but plans changed..AGAIN. haha we were suppose to go out last week or was it the week before? idk. i just know i havn't been out in so long, and i want to go out!! took a nap at home, after chillin with yoshi before he left to work. when i woke up, met up with my mom with my brother and sister at wal mart, after some shopping we went to ate pho..mMmmM havn't had some in awhile. it was good. now i'm home..its hot as hell, and i'm hella bored. haha.

should i just give up in trying to see her? damn, just a simple hello would put a smile on my face.. i should stop asking huh? and if she wants to see me, then she would of told me right? OHHHH WELL!! i'm done!

what did put a smile on my face though was watching Wizards on deck with hannah montana! hahaha, brenda song and selena gomez on the same show? come on.. can it get better than that?? haha they were both looking hella sexy in this 3episode show to ;D haha

my upgrade on my cellphone is coming up.. i'm leaning towards the new iphone 3gs now!! omg..idk what to do with my life..ha! later days

Happy birthday Krissy

so i was on youtube all morning, and prolly will be back on again after this haha since i dont work till 3pm. anywho, i was watching Cathy Nguyen's and Andrew Garcia's videos, and i really like em! i loved her rendition of poker face.i was literally smiling throughout the whole video, cuz she was so making it her own in a funny way but i still loved how she sang it. she has a great voice. i forgot the user name is i think like lilcdawg or something, i think that's right.

newho, so my birthay is in 8 days, who's excited with me? haha idk how excited i am. after my 21st birthday, all up coming birthdays are just another day now haha. i'm not even sure what i'm doing on my birthday, i have it off, and the day is free. that night i know is that going out with a few friends for 25cent wings and drink specials, haha. but we'll see what's up as the day gets closer.

its been an interesting summer yet again. the last two summers were mostly stressful, last summer i was talking to someone, the summer before that broke up with someone, and this summer, hmm, hard to say. but i do miss her =/

hopefully work will go smoothly today, last night, i was so irriated from this one resident, i just wanted to EXPLODE, no joke. but i love my job and did the right thing and kept walking away.

well that's pretty much it for now..later days

La Isla Bonita

wow, havn't gotten able to log on to my blogger in awhile, and it took me about half an hour trying to catch up on blogs. though i'm just following two ppl, they write alot! haha i wish i can blog longer, but i tend to get ADD and when i remember something to type out i already pressed the publish post button HAHA.

friday after work i gina texts me "lets go to chivitas" on my way home i'm texting her , "yay, lets go, i havn't been out in awhile" she goes ok i'll let you know when were about to leave, "10 mins later she goes, nvm were not going anymore, HAHA! man, i was so excited to go out to! its cool, the first friday of august, theres going to be another Session, that's when i guess my birthday celebration is going to be at. just like last year, i'll be on the August flyer, not the July flyer, haha. so that night, didnt do much just had some friends over and we just chilled at my house.

saturday morning, had to work AM shift, there was a new employee and they put him with me to shadow, i was cool with, i like training new ppl, its fun. and that day there was an outing trip to go the haggin museum at victory park, i was excited to go cuz i havn't been there yet! thought i lived in stockton about 20 years of my life! so we got there like around 11am, and it turned out to be closed still till 130pm!! maaaan! my spirit was broken, guess i still wont be able top visit that damn museum haha, someone take me pleaaaaasse!! after work, went home, step bro was here visiting, he wanted me to come with him so he can get his new phone, so i went with him to best buy, he got the phone that ima be getting later this month! the lg xenon, maaan now were going to have the same phone! haha, its cool, i hardly see that guy. after the mall, and after eating at Ono Hawaiian BBQ mmmm. headed back home got ready then headed to our grandmas house cuz it was her birthday. it was boring cuz they were all playing bingo and i get enough of that at work! haha. so i texted yoshi to pick me up, so i can go to my neighbor's dad's birthday to, spent the rest of the night there, had like 6 beers, idr the exact amount, i lost count haha. it was fun though, just being able to chill with friends i havn't seen in awhile to. walked home like at 130 in the morning, hella long walk (across the street) haha, knocked out as soon as i hit my bed.

today, woke up to gina's random morning texts on the weekends when i'm not working "wake up foo!!" haha, when i hear my phone ring so early in the morning, i know its her, esp on the weekends. so we texted for awhile, just being hella random, as i'm half asleep, and then as i'm falling back asleep, she calls me, DDAAAA HECK i said, she goes shut up i have something to say, then she tells this news at work, and i'm like WTF??? kinda thing, she goes yeah, ok go back to sleep, ahha i did, woke up back at 1030, went on the comp. and now i'm about to get ready for church, hopefully i updated enough haha, later days

AWOL

so today, was my first morning shift this month, and yay, i didnt spill my coffee this time! haha. so yeah, i was in the activity room doing paperwork, then i hear on the intercom "CODE GREEN..BACK PATIO..CODE GREEN BACK PATIO!!" code green is what you call out, when we need staff help, STAT! like if you can, RUN THE FAST AS YOU MAY towards the direction where they page is telling you go to , cuz usually it is a resident being assaultive, and we need hella heads to take them down .. etc etc. but not this time, it was for an AWOL (absence without leave) attempt! ) so when i heard the page on the intercom, i stopped what i was doing, run out the door, towards the back patio, i see gina then she yells, " hurry! ....... jumped over the fall!!" craaaaap, so i run outside, thinking where to start climbing this wall, so i just force myself over, and started sprinting through these apartments i find him trying to hide behind a dumpster, luckily he didn't fight back, cuz me and my other coworker who jumped the wall with me, did not want to start fighting with this lil guy haha. so luckily he was cooperative to walk back, but he just kept cussing at as haha, then i called work, to tell them to bring a van around and pick us up..hellaaaa out of breath when we got back to work, noticed that my elbow was bleeding..guess i scraped myself jumping the wall..haha battle scars..oh man was that an adrenaline rush today. but our bosses said next time, we're suppose to just call the police and let them handle it, but from our training, that's what our instinct do was, chase after these escapees ahha, but they keep changing the rules so idk what will happen next time..after work, went home took my usual nap, didnt sleep long, cuz its hot today, gahhhhhh. now i'm watching gangland on history channel, pretty interesting show, you should watch a few episodes, i have it on record series on my dvr haha, well that's it for now later days..

"its not what you're doing..i can care less..but its who you're doing it with that bothers me"

mmmm mongolian bbq

woke up today to the yelling of my lil brothers and cousin as they were playing ps3. it was already 930 so i rolled out of bed and ate my leftover buritto for breakfast haha. yoshi came over, then we went straight to cyrils house, cuz she had something for me from my cousin that he gave her to give me when she went on her hawaii visit. then we went to lunch at GK mongolian BBQ, first time being there, and i loved it! haha, put to much food in my prep bowl haha, ended up taking most of it home, all good, it was yummy. after lunch, headed home with yoshi, then just chilled , before he left to work.well thats pretty much my day, back to work tomorrow morning at 7am! later days

SF trip

so yesterday morning, woke up at 530 am, got ready, then nichelle picked me then we headed to SF for her orientation at SFSU. the orientation was so boring, well for me at least, i didnt have any relevance for what they were talking about, but as for the students, i think they did a good job with being informative haha. i'm exited that she's going to SF state, but at the same time, sad cuz now she wont be just 5 min drive away =( now more like an hour and a half. well it'd be like when i was living in sac , i missed her and home alot, went home every week! haha. but for her she'll most likely go home not as often as i did. after the orientation we headed to ocean's beach, it was real windy though, took some pics then headed home. everyone was really sleepy so i ended up driving..aaaand getting lost haha, ended up taking an extra 30-45 mintues to get home cuz i was driving around cities i never been to haha. i had a fun day for the most part though..

today, was pay day , yay. so got my check this morning, then straight to the bank. after the bank went home and waited for yoshi, cuz he was going to get another tattoo today. maaan been at the tattoo parlor for like 3 hours! and i was just sitting there, daydreaming, and texting of course haha. i want a tatt some day, i plan to get my first born's footprint, but idk where yet. and have my 2nd child's footprint as well, and have them maybe walking on my back or something, the idea is overrated, but i think its cool, haha. maybe just something in alibata script on my arm, but idk what to make it say though..buuuuttt i do have a low threshhold for pain, so idk when or how i'm going to get a tattoo, getting my ears pierced was pretty hectic for me! lmao. after the tattoo parlor, me yoshi, and gene headed to chipotle to get food, then back to my house to eat. yoshi went to work, then me and gene went to red ribbon cuz i was craving some halo halo! after that fix, went home, and here i am now =) tomorrow i'm off again, and i plan to do my laundry! haha. later days

5th of July

yeah, im a day late, but i didnt have time to greet everyone happy independence day! it was so busy yesterday, and i didnt even get to see a firework show!

woke up around 6:40 am to gina's text saying come to work now so i can help out with the bbq. i was like dammnn hella early, i want to sleeeep, i work PM today! newho, i slept for another hour, headed to Crestwood, picked up some money to get more food, then went back to work and started cutting up veggies, preparing the meat for the bbq, and much much more, couple hours later, and tons of food later, since it was a potluck/bbq to, there was hellaaa food, it turned out nice, most of the staff pitched in, so that was cool. after i ate, clocked in for work, then started working haha. and at that point i was super tired and just wanted to sleep! i thought the day would be calm, since i was a weekend and all, but i had so much paperwork to catch up on, so i was doing all that, while trying to stop fights, and telling residents to calm down as they yell up and down the hallway in front of the nurses station that i happen to be working at..maaaaan, at around 7:15pm i was finally done..maaan what a long day so far, just chilled till it was time to go home. after work, i headed to dianne's house, just to chill. and since it was in lathrop, didnt really see anything from her house, all bummed out, i suggested we just watch fireworks on youtube lol. haha, so pretty much the rest of my night was just chillin and karaoke-ing with everyone, gotta love the magic mic ;D you know i was on that shiiiit the rest of the night, hahaa. went home, knocked out, i had an OK july 4th this year, wished it was planned better, i didnt do much! later days..

happy birthday heidi!

off today, so me and yoshi just worked on my car. we built a custom housing for my amps in my car. more room in my trunk now, and we made the settings on the amps higher, now my bass is ridicously loud. haha, i misspelled that word, but i'm to lazy to backspace all the way there. newho, we took my baby around the block, and damn i'm going to be breaking necks like crazy even more now =) haha. jk. after all that which took most of the morning and afternoon, we just chilled at home, watched a few episodes of gangland, and just sat outside my house and enjoyed the breeze. oh i forgot, we went to get some yogurt to, hellaaaaaa hot today, and Nubi sounded hella good. mmmmmm. suppose to go to the bay today for heidi's birthday dinner, but didnt have a ride =( i wanted to real bad, but i told her we'd make it up another time. my 3 day offs coming to an end, back to work for the next 4 days i believe. including 4th of july! all good, no fireworks show downtown this year, supposedly it cost money to get that shit ready and shoot firewooks, and since the economy is messing up right now, there will be no show this year, bleh. its cool, we'll prolly see alot of illegal fireworks in the neighbor hoods even more now, weeeo0o0weeeeo0o0weeeo0o i can hear all the sirens from the firetrucks now haha. later days

Happy July 1st!

so its july, my favorite month =) haha. yesterday, i was off, but i went to work for this filipino celebration we put together for the residents, i had to perform =) i was wearing a barong and everything, haha, sucks i was hella nervous up front and kept messing up during my dance haha, but after the show, the residents loved it, and gave us lots of compliments, and even one of them, came up to the mic, and just started thankin everyone out of now where haha, that was cool. after work headed home, then walked two houses down to yoshi's house haha. chilled there for a few hours while we was installing a friends system in his car. caught up with old friends from highschool to. after all that, we headed to the park to play basketball, got to only play one game cuz it was getting dark already. at around 9, left to get some food, then chilled at chris's house, they all did hookah, but i didnt touch the shit, cuz i when we play "10 fingers" i want to still say "i never did hookah" and win hahaha. and that was pretty much my night, when home at around 1230, and right now i'm just chillin at home again, cuz i'm also off today, but idk what's up today. maybe start cleaning my room so more, my never ending mess of a room haha.

i really hope she's just going through a phase..i really dont like this all..i want to talk to her, but i'm hesitant of how she would react. especially coming from me =/