another week has gone..

this will be a continuation from my last week's blog..my mom is showing signs of getting better..but we all know something is still wrong with her..shes on meds, but i will keep praying as i hope you will also be doing..thank you, love you all for your love and support. later days

i love my mom

for those who dont know..my mom has been sick..its been a week since we took her to the ER , and just two days ago i was deeply afraid she was going to get admitted to a mental facility..and i work at a behavioral/psychiatric facility and i DO NOT want my mom staying there..thank goodness after she seen the psychiatrist she is going to be an outpatient..meaning she can take meds at home..shes steadily recovering..thank you all for your prayers..your texts to see how i'm doing, etc etc..later days..

rain rain go away

alot of ppl like the cold weather..alot of ppl like the rain..i'm the total opposite..why would i like the factors that contribute to national disasters like typhoons and hurricanes etc etc? haha over seas our homelands are being smashed on with all this "rain" you guys love..haha i know i'm a lil overboard just a tad, i just dont like the fact that i cant see the lines on the freeway from driving in the rain..and what's up with all this wind??! bring back the heaaaat! haha ok bye..later days

story of my life

what an interesting end of the week i had.. thursday told this girl how i felt, and yet again was turned down, and she told me to not feel akward when i'm around her..hmm how easy would that be? saturday went out on my date with spica =) i miss her..so we got to catch up as she was in town for the weekend..later that night we went to this party to, and i knew nichelle was going to be there and i was planning to patch up things between us and move forward..didnt go as planned, i left the party 30 minutes from getting there, i told spica i needed to talk to her in front of the house, and told i her had to leave..she understood why, as she seen how we were acting towards each other..silence speaks a 1000 words..so i drove home, on the brink of breaking down again, but f**k that i'm stronger than that, spica told as i left to keep my head up and stop crying, something simple, but coming from her is personal. but as i got home i realized, the fact that i acted like that made me think how much i care about my bestfriend..i'm not giving up, i'm determined to fix this..

on a lighter note, finally installed my foglights on my car..hella jdm status now haha! i kid you not when i'm driving down the road and another tuner car driving the opposite direction sees me, they turn around and stare as i pass by, im looking forward in my shades and use my peripheal vision ;D ohhhh and speaking of my car..on friday gina's brother in law wanted to race me..i was like what the heck, your car is hella fast..he drives a honda s2000..i was like ok we'll go for fun, cuz i like the adrenaline of going fast haha. so went off holman rd going northbound from morada..and at the stop lights we went..he was suppose to givee me two car lenghts, but he went when i went! haha what a cheater..so as we both peeled out, i look to my left as his tires were smoking..i was like daammnn sexy as car haha..and next thing you know, i no longer see him! haha i hella beat him..he mis shifted..haha like i told yoshi who was with me..i dont care if your car is faster then mines, if you dont know how to drive/race then i wil beat you ;D a win is a win..i felt good i just smoked an s2k! later days

yesterday wasn't a good day, maybe today =)

mondays are most of everyones worst day..mostly because of those who have the weekend off and its back to work, and or school. for me it was just school. but the whole morning yesterday was a waste, i missed classed cuz of stupid bs, and i tell you i was hella bored yesterday, the whole afternoon went by so slow, and i was like damnn, i rather be working! that's how bored i was. so me and yoshi found ways to kill time which included driving around stockton wasting gas to sight see haha. after that watched monday night football, watched heroes and studied a bit for my chem test!

today studied this morning in the lounge at delta for this chem test which is tomorrow now..i got work today, so i have to bring my books and study there hopefully its not to busy today

back to my social dilemma..i found out that she may like someone now..see what happens when you wait too long?? damn. i'm not sure though, but this just adds to my constant hesitation and backing off in telling her how i feel, everyone hates the "what if" feeling..so i NEED to tell her asap..but gahhh even if things down go the way i want, at least she knows..later days

october!

sooo its autumn season, time to get out the hoodies! haha, its cool, simple to get ready now, just throw one on, some jeans, and you're set! problem is, i need/want more hoodies now haha, and the problem with that problem is that shoping costs money, and the problem with problem's problem, is that i'm in debt =(

onnnn a lighter note, slowly but surely my studies have been going good, all chemistry is i think about now haha, not. but i'm getting the hang of it! have a test coming up on wednesday, and i'm a be on nerdstatus this weekend..yee.

currently watching the foodnetwork making me hellaaa hungry, boo and i have the sniffles btw..hope i dont get to sick =/ blehh i hate being sick.

stilllll havn't told her how i feel, i get so shy around her! is this a sign to just chill? i'm just afraid if i wait too long, it'd be too late .. gahhh

hmmm what i should make for halloween costume this year..i want to be the twiiter bird! lmao..kk later days..