I'm hella full! Me and 8 other of my homies went to Dublin to eat at hooters, and I kid you not, but we had about 500+ wings according to the manager! Haha. Best part is our beautiful sever =] she was Filipino and hella nice. Made our experience even more unforgettable , ok later days haha, I'm waaaay too tired to continue

crestwood xmas party

which was last night..worked in the morning from 9-530 , went straight home to get dressed, looked pretty fly if you ask me ;D had my red longsleeve and tie from Express. haha. picked up my date then headed to the Spanos Reserve. dinner was alright, had a few drinks and hit the dance floor! didnt matter if i was surrounded by coworkers, i danced like i was at the clubs hahah. crrazzzy i must tell you from the reactions everyone was giving me this morning at work! they were like, damn ralph, you were gettin it last night, i dont remember much of the stories they were telling me! hahah. tonight going out again, for a coworkers birthday dinner, its a misaki, and i havn't had sushi in awhile, so im craving some! currently watching the kings game, hope everyone is having a pleasant sunday evening =) later days

best ever where are you??!

where art thou best ever? you havn't posted in hella long, haha, i only follow two ppl ya know, guess i have to text you for your mia-ness haha, jk, i know we've been both busy...

hmmm, dont you just hate when you realize something after a long time of being oblivious, and finally admit to what everyone else has been seeing? in other words, you keep denying what ppl say, and you go your own way, to stick to your pride, to protect your ego, etc etc. and when it finally comes to the light, you're like ohh shit, what was i thinking? yeahhh, who to vent to about that? blogspot =) haha

Family: my family and I have been going through a tough two months now. My mom is sick, and still recovering. I want to thank each and everyone for their love and support as we try to maintain our lifestyle. Our lives have definetly changed.

My best friend Nichello Novelo: i don't care if you no longer wanna appreciate what I've done, or what we've been through. Yes I was a lil bummed on your last post. Made me think. Honestly, whether you agree or not, idgaf what ppl say, I'm still here, never left, never changed, just waiting..

My neighbors Arnold and Yoshi: actually they been more than just neighbors, we been through alot. I know for a fact they have my back in need. I walk in each others house as if it's my own, wether they home or not, we are family.

Ginalyn Santiago: my EBF =] more than a coworker. My older sister figure. She really has taken care of the last two years, no joke. Thank you.

Kayzar Buba and Kate Demesa: and the rest of your cousins haha , we've known each other for a long long time, though we don't see each other as often as when we were younger, I'm thankful for us being able to still KIT

Friends in general: I'm happy to know the ppl I do know. Everyone has made their contribution in more ways then none, thank you

thanksgiving break

should start today, but i have a lab to make up..blah!!

Omgahh, my friend, a really close friend actually, and as a matter of fact, one of my best friends from 4th grade in taylor, found me on Facebook!! I haven't seen or heard from in years since he moved to north Carolina more than what 10,12,13 years ago? Maybe longer! He messaged me saying is this the Ralph from Stockton, Taylor? 4th grade ms mcguckins class? I was like omgahhhhh!? Ahahaha I seen the name, looked at his pics. Excited at the moment, ok bye

Sitting in the cold is not the business. My fingers are freezing as I type this, but I have nothing else to do but be on my phone as I have 10 mins till class starts. So in the mean time, blogging it is! Haha. So this has been another tough month for me. Financially especially. Got get through the tough times, and i know it will be worth it in the end. Keep your head up I tell myself, easier said then done. Later days

100th post!

yayyy mee!! haha

so my neighbor got his house broken into..got me hella heated cuz this block is hella whack, nothing but niggas causing trouble, yes i said it..fuck it. my house got hit 3 times since i lived here. can we afford to move? nope.

mom's doing better, hope she can go back to work next month..really really hope shes 100% back soon, a little here and there worries but not as worst as she was a month ago..

still sick..day number two. i was doing better this morning, but my sniffles came back..guess cuz its to damn cold!

trying to find a friend a car, but hes so damn picky! haha

o0o0 titration labs in chem for the rest of the sem..fun?? we'll see..

just paid for this semester, broke. gotta register for spring sememster tomorrow! wish me luck on good classes and schedule! yyeeeee.. later days

Veterans Day no class , so decided to visit fam in san jose. On my trip I took Yoshi, Arnold, and Monique. We had a great time, haven't had a good whole day in ahwile. Went to my cousins house, ate some pho, had a mini car meet. Ate some more, frozen yogurt, and chilled more before we headed home. Short and simple description but everything in detail is so much more from inside jokes to personal questions and talks in the car ride. Gahhhh I love my friends.

mid mid-life crisis

the holidays are coming up!! yay or nay!? haha omgahhh i have no idea whats in store this year, but im gonna be ready. if it doesn't go as planned, as long as i have my family to celebrate it. lets pray my mom and the rest of the family will be blessed. as well as everyone as elses =)

financial problems left and right, not even funny anymore. debt way over our head, i know im not alone, and hope we can all pull through together. keep your heads up guys and gals. later days

im hungry

i'm craving some taco bell or jack in the box or something..gahh, but i'm broke till friday's pay day. haha so i'm going to just tough it up and eat whatevers in my kitchen! which at most times is nothing!

chemistry is whack, idk why we need it. like when i'm taking care of a patient will i need to know lewis structures? haha i just brought up that topic cuz its pretty easy, everything else is whack!

doing laundry is easy and time consuming

mom is doing better, they increased her leave for one more month tho =/

holidays is coming up and i have no idea how its going to turn out with all the changes

ok , i'm really hungry, haha i'll try to blog later. later days

another week has gone..

this will be a continuation from my last week's blog..my mom is showing signs of getting better..but we all know something is still wrong with her..shes on meds, but i will keep praying as i hope you will also be doing..thank you, love you all for your love and support. later days

i love my mom

for those who dont know..my mom has been sick..its been a week since we took her to the ER , and just two days ago i was deeply afraid she was going to get admitted to a mental facility..and i work at a behavioral/psychiatric facility and i DO NOT want my mom staying there..thank goodness after she seen the psychiatrist she is going to be an outpatient..meaning she can take meds at home..shes steadily recovering..thank you all for your prayers..your texts to see how i'm doing, etc etc..later days..

rain rain go away

alot of ppl like the cold weather..alot of ppl like the rain..i'm the total opposite..why would i like the factors that contribute to national disasters like typhoons and hurricanes etc etc? haha over seas our homelands are being smashed on with all this "rain" you guys love..haha i know i'm a lil overboard just a tad, i just dont like the fact that i cant see the lines on the freeway from driving in the rain..and what's up with all this wind??! bring back the heaaaat! haha ok bye..later days

story of my life

what an interesting end of the week i had.. thursday told this girl how i felt, and yet again was turned down, and she told me to not feel akward when i'm around her..hmm how easy would that be? saturday went out on my date with spica =) i miss her..so we got to catch up as she was in town for the weekend..later that night we went to this party to, and i knew nichelle was going to be there and i was planning to patch up things between us and move forward..didnt go as planned, i left the party 30 minutes from getting there, i told spica i needed to talk to her in front of the house, and told i her had to leave..she understood why, as she seen how we were acting towards each other..silence speaks a 1000 words..so i drove home, on the brink of breaking down again, but f**k that i'm stronger than that, spica told as i left to keep my head up and stop crying, something simple, but coming from her is personal. but as i got home i realized, the fact that i acted like that made me think how much i care about my bestfriend..i'm not giving up, i'm determined to fix this..

on a lighter note, finally installed my foglights on my car..hella jdm status now haha! i kid you not when i'm driving down the road and another tuner car driving the opposite direction sees me, they turn around and stare as i pass by, im looking forward in my shades and use my peripheal vision ;D ohhhh and speaking of my car..on friday gina's brother in law wanted to race me..i was like what the heck, your car is hella fast..he drives a honda s2000..i was like ok we'll go for fun, cuz i like the adrenaline of going fast haha. so went off holman rd going northbound from morada..and at the stop lights we went..he was suppose to givee me two car lenghts, but he went when i went! haha what a cheater..so as we both peeled out, i look to my left as his tires were smoking..i was like daammnn sexy as car haha..and next thing you know, i no longer see him! haha i hella beat him..he mis shifted..haha like i told yoshi who was with me..i dont care if your car is faster then mines, if you dont know how to drive/race then i wil beat you ;D a win is a win..i felt good i just smoked an s2k! later days

yesterday wasn't a good day, maybe today =)

mondays are most of everyones worst day..mostly because of those who have the weekend off and its back to work, and or school. for me it was just school. but the whole morning yesterday was a waste, i missed classed cuz of stupid bs, and i tell you i was hella bored yesterday, the whole afternoon went by so slow, and i was like damnn, i rather be working! that's how bored i was. so me and yoshi found ways to kill time which included driving around stockton wasting gas to sight see haha. after that watched monday night football, watched heroes and studied a bit for my chem test!

today studied this morning in the lounge at delta for this chem test which is tomorrow now..i got work today, so i have to bring my books and study there hopefully its not to busy today

back to my social dilemma..i found out that she may like someone now..see what happens when you wait too long?? damn. i'm not sure though, but this just adds to my constant hesitation and backing off in telling her how i feel, everyone hates the "what if" feeling..so i NEED to tell her asap..but gahhh even if things down go the way i want, at least she knows..later days

october!

sooo its autumn season, time to get out the hoodies! haha, its cool, simple to get ready now, just throw one on, some jeans, and you're set! problem is, i need/want more hoodies now haha, and the problem with that problem is that shoping costs money, and the problem with problem's problem, is that i'm in debt =(

onnnn a lighter note, slowly but surely my studies have been going good, all chemistry is i think about now haha, not. but i'm getting the hang of it! have a test coming up on wednesday, and i'm a be on nerdstatus this weekend..yee.

currently watching the foodnetwork making me hellaaa hungry, boo and i have the sniffles btw..hope i dont get to sick =/ blehh i hate being sick.

stilllll havn't told her how i feel, i get so shy around her! is this a sign to just chill? i'm just afraid if i wait too long, it'd be too late .. gahhh

hmmm what i should make for halloween costume this year..i want to be the twiiter bird! lmao..kk later days..

happy birthday EBF

today worked 9-530, didnt feel like working, but i dragged myself out of bed and headed to work. but it was cool, i slacked at the beginning of my shift, but did hellaaaaa make up work =) finished two of my charts, one late one, and did an early one to! woohooo. and the rest of the afternoon, fingerpainted! haha it was fun. after work headed to gina's surprise birthday thing, got there in time! haha thought i missed the surprise. all good if i did anyways, i was super early for her dinner last night at misakis haha, that was fun to, didnt drink much, had just a few shots of hot sake. hmmm, after gina's i headed to a family party, watched the boxing fight there, alot of ppl said it was boring, it was just slow for me, freaking mayweather hella toyed around withhim, then hella shit talking went down after, can't wait for manny to lay him out! he may be bigger, but manny is quicker! hmm and for some random reason i smell tortillas coming from outside lmao..later days

debt

sucks being in debt, especially in this economy. the timing can't be worst. i hate it. i always put others before me, before i worry about myself. but then now, i can't even support myself, and i feel bad, cuz i always help my mom, with bills and whatever, to the point where i'm in debt now, and its still not enough to cover our expenses. i dont work that often anymore cuz of school. and i know when i finish school i'll be way on my way in getting rid of my debt, but with less hours at work, i can't make enough to get through the months now..its getting too overwhelming..my needs and wants are getting more and more hard to be distinguised from one another..i know everyone sooner or later will have a taste of this awful economy, i'm just trying to figure out how to pull through, i have my friends and fam to support me in all my endeavors. not that i'm saying anyone has it easier than me, but with my dad being laid off for shiiit i dont even remember, been that long already, my mom supports this household of almost 10 heads, it sucks, i feel bad, so i step in with my paycheck to fill in , but then i dont have shit for me to have..i feel so bad asking my mom for 5bucks to buy lunch..cuz i need my last 20bucks to buy gas..FML..

on a lighter note, i've made the attempt to text my bestfriend the other day, didnt go as well as planned, but i was a step..i'm looking forward to patch everything up soon =) later days..

im hungry

i'm feeling for some pho and spring rolls with peanut sauce ;D

tumblr!?

wtf!? right? i was tired of not being in everyone's conversation haha.

two new crushes, one way younger than me, the other one year older..FML..

and still..i haven't tried to talk to my best, i plan too soon, wish me luck

later days

3 day weekend!!

yay, but i still have work all weekend, bleh! but i'm today so that's cool. today i'm just going to chill all day, cuz i gotta save up my energy for tonight! going out to the club again for september's session..gina's birthday celebration and much more of myother friends..gonna be a big event! i'm excited! well until then, later days

not so stressed

big change from my mood today compared to my mood yesterday, or even the whole last month compared to today hahah. seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeecret is why i'm such in a jolly mood =) ask and i shall tell..

so more and more coworkers have been telling me that i look like i'm gaining weight..to most they would be offended, but for me more of a compliment lol..been working out and taking this mass builder from gnc. so far so good. idk, just been really motivated to stop being my shrimpy self hahaha, but bottom line is, love me for who i am though right?? most if not all those who rejected me or whatever have been shallow =/ bad karma? though i dont think the only girl i turned down was when i was in 7th grade..that sooo doesn't count hahah..later days..

stressed!

i really need to call or text her soon. its driving me insane, and talking to a close friend of mines and she gives me the go signal of actually being the one to contact her..i'm tired of waiting for her to contact me so i have to do it..but how do i do it? what do i say? i miss her and i want her back in my life..i can't take this anylonger..i miss my best friend..

school is so far so good, just one class, but its the kind of class that will take over your life hahaha.

finally told her what was bothering me..was it a good idea? idk..who knows what she thinks of me now.. =/

i've experienced first hand what drinking and driving does..i was on a scene saturday night, and i knew the ppl invovled..as i was standing on that street, i was shooken up..not only a DUI, but under aged as well..STUPID STUPID STUPID kids..yet im glad they are ok..family is going through a lot of shit now, since they had to bail him out of jail..lesson learned indeed

got to finish my lab write up before i head to class! later days!

sigh

its been weeks..should i text her..or should i wait for her to text me? i can't take this..

on another note, i'm real happy we can maintain a healthy relationship, but there are still too many things that bother me, i want to share them with you, but would our relationship still stand? =/

barely have time to blog lately, school started, and my laptop doesn't have internet access at the moment..AGAIN..gahhh, and plus i'm always on my iphone now hahaha, but i can't blog from there, the only have an app for tumblr..boo! well hope everything is going good with everyone..if anything text me to see whats up! fastest and easiest way to get a hold of me! unless i'm driving haha, cuz i can't do much texting and driving anymore..no more t9! that is all..later days

that's wassup! or that's the business! ??

haha, realized some interesting lingo, well at least here in stockton .. south side folks tend to say "that's wassup" when talking about something cool or whatever, and north side folks tend to say "thats the business" this is based on my own observation..idk what they say in other places, or what you say?

some examples of my random blog..haha

"sweet tea with 4 shots of cream is the business!"

etc etc haha

her name's robin..

omg, where have i beeeeen!? hahaha who knows, my life is pretty hectic the past few weeks, more like the past few months..blehh..

3 different ppl real close to me, have f**ked up, im willing to admit that i did the best i could to maintain a healthy relationship with them..one after another, they f**k up, i've done my part, if they want to act like damn babies, grow the f**k up..if you're going to be a hypocrite, grow the f**k up..i'm tired..i'm actually having something going good with my life right now, please dont jeopardize it..if you are willing to work at our relationship, then i'm more than happy to work with you, but if you are going to be oblivious to your immaturity then that's your problem..i'm done..

sweet mother of pearl

yesterday was my grandpa's funeral, long story short, it was sad, i cried several times throughout the day, and the day before during the viewing.

hmm, not much to say right now, cuz my day is just about to begin, my cousin kevin is on his way down now to pick me up then we going to SF and San Jose, just to chill, who knows what we'll be doing, but were both today and tomorrow so we just going to see what happens, then i'll blog later on how our day went haha.

just got done cleaning cyndy's microwave haha, it was a bitch cleaning that thing..but its cool, dont want to give back all the stuff i was holding for her all dirty and shit haha.

well that's it for now i guess, later days

New Jersey

sorry i've been MIA for the past few days, been really busy, and didnt have time to go online other than on my new iphone ;D hahah. but yeah, busy cuz my sister's friend from New Jersey is staying at my house for a week, and we just been showing him around the west coast haha. so far we took him to sacramento, jackson haha, and on thursday we went to san francisco, let me tell you that day was crazy, cuz i took my car and driving a stick on those hills was crazyyyyy, i thought i could handle it cuz i've been driving stick for awhile now, but my palms were sweating, and i was really nervous! shit was hella steep!!! i got pictures haha. my clutch was burrrrnnniiiiing...so bad..smelt bad to gahhh. newho, the next day i had work, so i didnt get to go with them to six flags, boo. today im in yuba city at my cousins house for my annual min family reunion from all around to celebrate my grandma's birthday..yeah that's pretty much it, ima try to catch up on reading up on blogs..later days

things i learned that is different from New Jersey and California..no carl's jr, jack n the box, or in n out, over there..but they do have white castle! uhm, they have someone pump their gas for them and it is illegal to do so your self, and the car pool lanes are also known as HOV lanes (high occupancy vehicles) they dont say HELLA and say MAD COOL or MEAN like for same example, wow that's a mean jawbreaker (talking about a jawbreaker size of a small baseball! haha i thought that was funny, shut up...haha theres LOTS more to, but i think its pretty interesting.

Twitterriffic

today, woke up around 10am, texted my BE to see if she was doing better, she was having a bad night, havn't slept on the phone in awhile..it was nice. arnold and his brother and sister came over, we just chilled in the living room then we decided we wanted to eat something, made a quick run to the grocery store cuz we had baked potatoes! mmmm. i love baked potatoes! and this was the first time i made them at home..turned out yummy, i put hellaaa sour cream haha. after i ate, had to get ready for work, went to work, and today was a pretty chill day, had bible study class, and bingo today. did some paperwork. after work went to in n out, just got done eating it, now just chillin in my room watching comedy central =) later days..

i do not use the label "bestfriend" loosely, if i claim you as my bestfriend, then best believe that i mean it..you weren't there that night, you DO NOT know what happened, yes i was wasted, but i'm not stupid..i love you, but you have to hear me out..

My 22nd Birthday

so starting with 12am...

first set of texts were from nichelle, about 50+ of the same texts saying happy birthday sucker! =) or something in that nature, followed by a few more close friends, and some friends i was surprised stayed up to text me at 12! thanks guys, oh and the only phone call i got was from angelyn, my (ex) ex in parenthesis, haha ask me why..and thanks to cyndy who waited till 3am ;D that's a first ahah, and the longest text i got to. and thanks to princess for the LATEST text, haha, there were some after her, but damn, i was expecting an ealier one, haha, jk! i love you!.

woke up around 8am, told nichelle and arnold to get ready cuz they wanted to come with me to spend my day at san jose till my dinner at 8 at BJ's. got to san jose at around 11, picked up angelyn..and spent the day at santana row and valley fair mall. *sigh* as much as i hate admitting it..but i do miss her..i just happened to get the short end of the stick, and someone else got to her before i did..i was picked second..for awhile i was all butt hurt..but its been a year, and since i still wanted to maintain a nice relationship with her, i asked if i can hang out with her..so while we are the mall and urban outfitters at santana row, when ever we were alone, (while nichelle and arnold wandered off) i honestly got butterflies, and was super nervous around her, especially in the fitting room at Urban..she was dressing me, and i was shaking..omg, im not sure why..but all i can say the song "weak" came into mind LOL. she's not with you anymore ralph..does she feel the same? does she miss me to? all these questions running through my head..and during the whole time, she was so flirty unless im reading her wrong? but damn..i was like, damn, i really do miss her, i didnt tell her anything though..

on the way home, i told the ppl in the car how i felt about my ex, they told me its ok to miss someone, but just keep moving forward..etc etc. when we got back to stockton, barely had time to get ready and head to BJ's for my dinner..damn, when i got there long story short, i was already drunk within 30 minutes of being there! i downed 3 AMFs each in like 15 seconds or less..i have video to prove it!! it was so bad, i didnt even get to have dinner! they took me outside, cuz i was yacking GAHHHH!! i was crying cuz i felt so bad that ppl were in still inside and i barely got there, i was crying out for nichelle, she wasn't there at the time cuz she had a family thing to do, and was going to show up later..but i was REALLY crying , yelling her name, "someone call nichelle pleeeaase" so they get a hold of her and tell her that i'm crying for her, she comes , takes me home..i really dont know what happened after that..threw up more at home, all the way to the next morning..ended up calling in for work..blahhh!!

today, after being sober enough to reply to everyones myspace and facebook greetings haha, which i barely did just now..but during work, i couldnt help to think about that day in san jose..i told angelyn how i felt, and how i couldnt make it to her party tonight, cuz i dont want to go there, knowing that i'm not with her anymore.. she understands completely..i dont blame her..but can i blame myself? i've just been through alot with her..more than even my official ex gf, i dont even KIT with her, but with angelyn, its diff, i should hold this grudge on what she did, but i honestly want a healthy relationship, she's still there when i need her..

instead of taking a nap when i got home, arnold and yoshi asked to come over, so we're just chillin..i have to get ready soon to go to my grandpa's prayer..he past yesterday =/ dont really want to talk about that but yeah..crazy few days huh? later days..

iPhone 3G s

yeeeeeeeah buddy, got myself my birthday present today, haha the new iphone =) i love it. i wasn't really going to get it, but shhiiiit, i felt like spoiling myself haha.

last night, i was off, just pretty much spent my day roaming around stockton with my bestfriend. ate sushi and all that good stuff. then later that night, went to a bon fire, it was alright, nothing to exciting watching wood burn though ahha, went home around 1am, slept and got ready for another fully day off haha

today, didnt do much either, again more stockton roaming, but this time with my neighbors yoshi and arnold, got my iphone, ate at mickey d's and i just got home from the park. my birthday is in less than 3 hours! yeeeeeeee!!

Wizards on Deck with Hannah Montana

too lazy and hot to thoroughly back track and blog about the last few days. sorry haha.

today met up with my EBF gina and had lunch, then ran a few errands before we headed home. we were suppose to go out again tonight to the club, but plans changed..AGAIN. haha we were suppose to go out last week or was it the week before? idk. i just know i havn't been out in so long, and i want to go out!! took a nap at home, after chillin with yoshi before he left to work. when i woke up, met up with my mom with my brother and sister at wal mart, after some shopping we went to ate pho..mMmmM havn't had some in awhile. it was good. now i'm home..its hot as hell, and i'm hella bored. haha.

should i just give up in trying to see her? damn, just a simple hello would put a smile on my face.. i should stop asking huh? and if she wants to see me, then she would of told me right? OHHHH WELL!! i'm done!

what did put a smile on my face though was watching Wizards on deck with hannah montana! hahaha, brenda song and selena gomez on the same show? come on.. can it get better than that?? haha they were both looking hella sexy in this 3episode show to ;D haha

my upgrade on my cellphone is coming up.. i'm leaning towards the new iphone 3gs now!! omg..idk what to do with my life..ha! later days

Happy birthday Krissy

so i was on youtube all morning, and prolly will be back on again after this haha since i dont work till 3pm. anywho, i was watching Cathy Nguyen's and Andrew Garcia's videos, and i really like em! i loved her rendition of poker face.i was literally smiling throughout the whole video, cuz she was so making it her own in a funny way but i still loved how she sang it. she has a great voice. i forgot the user name is i think like lilcdawg or something, i think that's right.

newho, so my birthay is in 8 days, who's excited with me? haha idk how excited i am. after my 21st birthday, all up coming birthdays are just another day now haha. i'm not even sure what i'm doing on my birthday, i have it off, and the day is free. that night i know is that going out with a few friends for 25cent wings and drink specials, haha. but we'll see what's up as the day gets closer.

its been an interesting summer yet again. the last two summers were mostly stressful, last summer i was talking to someone, the summer before that broke up with someone, and this summer, hmm, hard to say. but i do miss her =/

hopefully work will go smoothly today, last night, i was so irriated from this one resident, i just wanted to EXPLODE, no joke. but i love my job and did the right thing and kept walking away.

well that's pretty much it for now..later days

La Isla Bonita

wow, havn't gotten able to log on to my blogger in awhile, and it took me about half an hour trying to catch up on blogs. though i'm just following two ppl, they write alot! haha i wish i can blog longer, but i tend to get ADD and when i remember something to type out i already pressed the publish post button HAHA.

friday after work i gina texts me "lets go to chivitas" on my way home i'm texting her , "yay, lets go, i havn't been out in awhile" she goes ok i'll let you know when were about to leave, "10 mins later she goes, nvm were not going anymore, HAHA! man, i was so excited to go out to! its cool, the first friday of august, theres going to be another Session, that's when i guess my birthday celebration is going to be at. just like last year, i'll be on the August flyer, not the July flyer, haha. so that night, didnt do much just had some friends over and we just chilled at my house.

saturday morning, had to work AM shift, there was a new employee and they put him with me to shadow, i was cool with, i like training new ppl, its fun. and that day there was an outing trip to go the haggin museum at victory park, i was excited to go cuz i havn't been there yet! thought i lived in stockton about 20 years of my life! so we got there like around 11am, and it turned out to be closed still till 130pm!! maaaan! my spirit was broken, guess i still wont be able top visit that damn museum haha, someone take me pleaaaaasse!! after work, went home, step bro was here visiting, he wanted me to come with him so he can get his new phone, so i went with him to best buy, he got the phone that ima be getting later this month! the lg xenon, maaan now were going to have the same phone! haha, its cool, i hardly see that guy. after the mall, and after eating at Ono Hawaiian BBQ mmmm. headed back home got ready then headed to our grandmas house cuz it was her birthday. it was boring cuz they were all playing bingo and i get enough of that at work! haha. so i texted yoshi to pick me up, so i can go to my neighbor's dad's birthday to, spent the rest of the night there, had like 6 beers, idr the exact amount, i lost count haha. it was fun though, just being able to chill with friends i havn't seen in awhile to. walked home like at 130 in the morning, hella long walk (across the street) haha, knocked out as soon as i hit my bed.

today, woke up to gina's random morning texts on the weekends when i'm not working "wake up foo!!" haha, when i hear my phone ring so early in the morning, i know its her, esp on the weekends. so we texted for awhile, just being hella random, as i'm half asleep, and then as i'm falling back asleep, she calls me, DDAAAA HECK i said, she goes shut up i have something to say, then she tells this news at work, and i'm like WTF??? kinda thing, she goes yeah, ok go back to sleep, ahha i did, woke up back at 1030, went on the comp. and now i'm about to get ready for church, hopefully i updated enough haha, later days

AWOL

so today, was my first morning shift this month, and yay, i didnt spill my coffee this time! haha. so yeah, i was in the activity room doing paperwork, then i hear on the intercom "CODE GREEN..BACK PATIO..CODE GREEN BACK PATIO!!" code green is what you call out, when we need staff help, STAT! like if you can, RUN THE FAST AS YOU MAY towards the direction where they page is telling you go to , cuz usually it is a resident being assaultive, and we need hella heads to take them down .. etc etc. but not this time, it was for an AWOL (absence without leave) attempt! ) so when i heard the page on the intercom, i stopped what i was doing, run out the door, towards the back patio, i see gina then she yells, " hurry! ....... jumped over the fall!!" craaaaap, so i run outside, thinking where to start climbing this wall, so i just force myself over, and started sprinting through these apartments i find him trying to hide behind a dumpster, luckily he didn't fight back, cuz me and my other coworker who jumped the wall with me, did not want to start fighting with this lil guy haha. so luckily he was cooperative to walk back, but he just kept cussing at as haha, then i called work, to tell them to bring a van around and pick us up..hellaaaa out of breath when we got back to work, noticed that my elbow was bleeding..guess i scraped myself jumping the wall..haha battle scars..oh man was that an adrenaline rush today. but our bosses said next time, we're suppose to just call the police and let them handle it, but from our training, that's what our instinct do was, chase after these escapees ahha, but they keep changing the rules so idk what will happen next time..after work, went home took my usual nap, didnt sleep long, cuz its hot today, gahhhhhh. now i'm watching gangland on history channel, pretty interesting show, you should watch a few episodes, i have it on record series on my dvr haha, well that's it for now later days..

"its not what you're doing..i can care less..but its who you're doing it with that bothers me"

mmmm mongolian bbq

woke up today to the yelling of my lil brothers and cousin as they were playing ps3. it was already 930 so i rolled out of bed and ate my leftover buritto for breakfast haha. yoshi came over, then we went straight to cyrils house, cuz she had something for me from my cousin that he gave her to give me when she went on her hawaii visit. then we went to lunch at GK mongolian BBQ, first time being there, and i loved it! haha, put to much food in my prep bowl haha, ended up taking most of it home, all good, it was yummy. after lunch, headed home with yoshi, then just chilled , before he left to work.well thats pretty much my day, back to work tomorrow morning at 7am! later days

SF trip

so yesterday morning, woke up at 530 am, got ready, then nichelle picked me then we headed to SF for her orientation at SFSU. the orientation was so boring, well for me at least, i didnt have any relevance for what they were talking about, but as for the students, i think they did a good job with being informative haha. i'm exited that she's going to SF state, but at the same time, sad cuz now she wont be just 5 min drive away =( now more like an hour and a half. well it'd be like when i was living in sac , i missed her and home alot, went home every week! haha. but for her she'll most likely go home not as often as i did. after the orientation we headed to ocean's beach, it was real windy though, took some pics then headed home. everyone was really sleepy so i ended up driving..aaaand getting lost haha, ended up taking an extra 30-45 mintues to get home cuz i was driving around cities i never been to haha. i had a fun day for the most part though..

today, was pay day , yay. so got my check this morning, then straight to the bank. after the bank went home and waited for yoshi, cuz he was going to get another tattoo today. maaan been at the tattoo parlor for like 3 hours! and i was just sitting there, daydreaming, and texting of course haha. i want a tatt some day, i plan to get my first born's footprint, but idk where yet. and have my 2nd child's footprint as well, and have them maybe walking on my back or something, the idea is overrated, but i think its cool, haha. maybe just something in alibata script on my arm, but idk what to make it say though..buuuuttt i do have a low threshhold for pain, so idk when or how i'm going to get a tattoo, getting my ears pierced was pretty hectic for me! lmao. after the tattoo parlor, me yoshi, and gene headed to chipotle to get food, then back to my house to eat. yoshi went to work, then me and gene went to red ribbon cuz i was craving some halo halo! after that fix, went home, and here i am now =) tomorrow i'm off again, and i plan to do my laundry! haha. later days

5th of July

yeah, im a day late, but i didnt have time to greet everyone happy independence day! it was so busy yesterday, and i didnt even get to see a firework show!

woke up around 6:40 am to gina's text saying come to work now so i can help out with the bbq. i was like dammnn hella early, i want to sleeeep, i work PM today! newho, i slept for another hour, headed to Crestwood, picked up some money to get more food, then went back to work and started cutting up veggies, preparing the meat for the bbq, and much much more, couple hours later, and tons of food later, since it was a potluck/bbq to, there was hellaaa food, it turned out nice, most of the staff pitched in, so that was cool. after i ate, clocked in for work, then started working haha. and at that point i was super tired and just wanted to sleep! i thought the day would be calm, since i was a weekend and all, but i had so much paperwork to catch up on, so i was doing all that, while trying to stop fights, and telling residents to calm down as they yell up and down the hallway in front of the nurses station that i happen to be working at..maaaaan, at around 7:15pm i was finally done..maaan what a long day so far, just chilled till it was time to go home. after work, i headed to dianne's house, just to chill. and since it was in lathrop, didnt really see anything from her house, all bummed out, i suggested we just watch fireworks on youtube lol. haha, so pretty much the rest of my night was just chillin and karaoke-ing with everyone, gotta love the magic mic ;D you know i was on that shiiiit the rest of the night, hahaa. went home, knocked out, i had an OK july 4th this year, wished it was planned better, i didnt do much! later days..

happy birthday heidi!

off today, so me and yoshi just worked on my car. we built a custom housing for my amps in my car. more room in my trunk now, and we made the settings on the amps higher, now my bass is ridicously loud. haha, i misspelled that word, but i'm to lazy to backspace all the way there. newho, we took my baby around the block, and damn i'm going to be breaking necks like crazy even more now =) haha. jk. after all that which took most of the morning and afternoon, we just chilled at home, watched a few episodes of gangland, and just sat outside my house and enjoyed the breeze. oh i forgot, we went to get some yogurt to, hellaaaaaa hot today, and Nubi sounded hella good. mmmmmm. suppose to go to the bay today for heidi's birthday dinner, but didnt have a ride =( i wanted to real bad, but i told her we'd make it up another time. my 3 day offs coming to an end, back to work for the next 4 days i believe. including 4th of july! all good, no fireworks show downtown this year, supposedly it cost money to get that shit ready and shoot firewooks, and since the economy is messing up right now, there will be no show this year, bleh. its cool, we'll prolly see alot of illegal fireworks in the neighbor hoods even more now, weeeo0o0weeeeo0o0weeeo0o i can hear all the sirens from the firetrucks now haha. later days

Happy July 1st!

so its july, my favorite month =) haha. yesterday, i was off, but i went to work for this filipino celebration we put together for the residents, i had to perform =) i was wearing a barong and everything, haha, sucks i was hella nervous up front and kept messing up during my dance haha, but after the show, the residents loved it, and gave us lots of compliments, and even one of them, came up to the mic, and just started thankin everyone out of now where haha, that was cool. after work headed home, then walked two houses down to yoshi's house haha. chilled there for a few hours while we was installing a friends system in his car. caught up with old friends from highschool to. after all that, we headed to the park to play basketball, got to only play one game cuz it was getting dark already. at around 9, left to get some food, then chilled at chris's house, they all did hookah, but i didnt touch the shit, cuz i when we play "10 fingers" i want to still say "i never did hookah" and win hahaha. and that was pretty much my night, when home at around 1230, and right now i'm just chillin at home again, cuz i'm also off today, but idk what's up today. maybe start cleaning my room so more, my never ending mess of a room haha.

i really hope she's just going through a phase..i really dont like this all..i want to talk to her, but i'm hesitant of how she would react. especially coming from me =/

nothing much to say

yeah, been a boring weekend..worked since thursday, and last day 2mrw, before i'm off for 3 days..that's going to be so boring haha, lets plan something please! well on saturday it was my cousins birthday, drove to yuba city, then drove back home the next day. it was good to see family again, though they have been beeing asses lately, hope its just a phase though =)

so i didnt get to see her, idk when she's going back either, dont really want to ask cuz she seems so busy, but if she does read this, sorry. i just really miss my friend. just a simple hello and hug would of sufficed.

Circle of Friends

my circle of friends have definetly changed. i'm now hanging out with ppl around my age group and even older. i love it. no time for bullshit from all the lil kids, and not having the obligation of being the eldest in the crowd and having to babysit them. i still have my fun, nothing to serious. i just have my fun in a more mature way now. with that said, my original circle of friends is slowly not being the same =/ and its not because i choose not to make an effort to hang out with them, its just the whole negligence thing. i'm seldom called upon now, and when i find out what's up, i'm surprised. doing shit, i'd never imagine they'd be doing. and i hear stuff, i read stuff, i even see stuff. i'm real disappointed. but i'm in no position to bring anything up, i rather let them see the light on their own, i'm happy with my life right now to be sucked in to their drama. when worst comes to worst my circle of BESTFRIENDS, will always be there, my bestfriends' circle of friends do not overlap, and when they do, i'd be in the middle, and i rather keep it that way. lets see how the rest of the summer goes..later days

transformers (i miss her)

Transformers: Rise of the Fallen may be one of the best summer movies this year! i'll try my best to not reveal any spoilers like who dies!? hurry up and watch it so we can talk about it!! as much as i loved all the action in the movie, during different parts of the movie, i just sat there and thought about stuff..stuff not even relevant to the movie. i sat there pretty much alone, yes i was with my brothers, and my friends were all having a fun time. but needless to say, i was in the same theatre, same screen! more than a month ago was the last time i was at that downtown stockton theatre. i dont want to seem selfish, but i want to express what i felt here. idk who to talk to about it. well here it goes..i felt alone..i had someone with me at the last premeire i was at, and something happen that night that was my first, and that was just sitting there watching a movie with somoenes arms around yours and head on your shoulders. its cheesy, but i loved feeling that for the first time. she was just a real close friend at the time, and she still is. i tried to shake it off when watching transformers, cuz that movie was so loud, action throught the movie..but it was hard, time to time, i'd say "i miss *****" in my head =/

yesterday, worked in the morning, then after work, went home, met up with yoshi then we watched nick and norah's infinite playlist, haha. that movie is funny, and we were bored and he wanted to watch it ok!? i like that movie, its cute. after the movie, chris and mark came over then we heaed to the park to blay basketball , then right before we left we had a 3point shootout, and every miss shot = 5 pushups, haha , i made alot, but missed some to, my arms are still sore right now. after the park, it was like around 9, went home got ready to head to the theatres cuz i me and brothers and friends went to go watch the midnight premiere of transformers!

today i work at 3, so i'm just watching tv and being online all day, as the bum i am. right now watching a very special love. well that's all for now later days.

jon and kate no more!

got up at 845 today, took my sister to run some errands. first i picked up my check at work, and what a bad time to pick it up to, there was a fire drill, so we had to wait while that was over till we left. then we went to the courthouse to pay for my sisters speeding ticket..after that drove to lodi, to drop off my mom's work keys that she left at home. after lodi, drove to island gourmet to get food before work, then dropped off my sister home then headed back to work..and at this time i got to work at like 1220ish, ate real quick cuz i worked at 1230. whoa what a morning eh? hella busy, then went straight to work in the dining room and started passing out the food trays haha..hella exhausted about a few hours into work, just wanted to sleep! i suggested that there should be a nap time group like at kindergarten lol. well that was pretty much my day, right now just chillin in my room watching george lopez and chatting with cyndy on aim. got work in the morning, so i might be hitting the sack soon. later days

happy father's day

yesterday was aleena's luau. i had work in the morning, i switched with gina so she can have it off for her aleena's party. work was alright, nothing to exciting today, but i did learn during one of my groups that the human brain would smell like bleu cheese if you smelt it! ewww grosss right!? haha. after work, went straight home to change into my hawaiian attire, then headed to gina's house. i got there before my sister and brothers, they were still waiting for the cake to be delivered at red ribbon. well at the party, after i ate, all the lil kids played games, and for the adult limbo, i won =) i got scrapes on my elbow from losing my balance cuz it was running down the driveway, after i got up from bending down so low, lost my balance i guess. well all good it was worth the starbucks giftcard! uhm, oh yeah, gina put me in charge of face painting all the lil kids, this was my first time, but i turned out alright, i did my best making flowers and hearts and stars and sharks and all kinds of other stuff, oh and spiders to lol. after all the lil kids went home, all the rest of us were drinking, jelloshots, and other stuff. it was fun, i had fun. oh yeah, during gift opening, after aleena opening a bunch of toys and clothes, she opens my big heavy gift all excited, then finds out its a bookshelf, and goes i dont need this!! =( ha! maaaaaaan! its what me and her mom knew what she needed in her room! ok that's yesterday, went home around 1230 am..

today is father's day, about to leave to church soon, then eat out for a lunch buffet, then idk what after that, ok hope everyone else has a super day, treat your dads out today, later days

Happy Birthday Aleenamadelyn!

today is my ebf's daughter's birthday..i'm at their house right now, and we just got done decorating the cupcakes and brownies i baked earlier today since i was off work. yeah on my days off lately consisted of sleeping all day and baking..haha very fun huh? well back to work 2mrw morning..and we'll go from there..lovin summer so far! i should be going to summer school, but in this case i can save enough money from working all summer for all the fun stuff, like my birthday =) oh yes, idk about you, but i love celebrating my birthday! i know a few and i'm pretty sure theres plenty of more ppl, who think birthdays is just another day, nope not to me, its my day to shine! its your special holiday, it should be a national holiday! haha anways, earlier today i was killing time at the mall while gina wasn't home yet. oh man i spent like $100 bucks shopping around for myself in like an hour and a half lol. i bought a shirt at hollister, pjs and jeans at old navy, aleena's birthdaycard, and my curve cologne at macy's. i was tired of just walking around, so i was just swiping my cards like nothing..someone please take them away for awhile! haha. well gotta go now, i think they going to blow the cake soon, oh and best ever, i'm still waiting for the pic ;D

Ciao Bella

finally! intenet has been down for a couple of days, didnt get to blog lately, sorry, so i'm a try and update here. on wednesday after work, went to ciao bella , this italian restaurant lounge place thingy lol, but of course we were just at the back, by the bar =) i was with janice, and of course my EBF ginalyn, vince, and a few of his friends. specials on wednsedays after 7pm, are 25cent wings and drink specials to! so had a few drinks, and hella wings, had a fun night =) got beat up my gina alot cuz she was hella buzzin, slappin in my face , hitting my head, everything, that's what i get for sitting next to her haha.

thursday, hung out the whole day with EBF again. started around 9 , brought over food to cook for breakfast, then after that, we went to take her daughter aleena for her photoshoot, ran a few more errands, went to the mall to look for a hawaiian polo, oh and i bought scrubs to finally! so when i get off work i look hella legit, and ppl would be like, damn, look at that nurse, lmao! after the mall went back to gina's and helped her with making shrimp lumpia! first time, and i had fun, and i want to start making them to when i get time. gotta peel the shrimp, peel the wrappers, roll it up, then 200pcs later..we realized we still didnt have enough for aleena's party next week, haha, so we took a break, and just watched the basketball game..LA got another steal! bleh!

friday morning worked AM shift. 7-330. work was alright, worked on station 1 the alheizmer's unit. so it was a little more slow paced, especially when i was teaching my classes. the excitment of the day was me and like 4 other coworkers holding down a resident, to give him a shot to calm him down, cuz he was being hella bad. after work, went home, took a nap, planed my sunflower i took from work then washed my car.

San Jose

so i've been in san jose since last night, and ima leave tomorrow morning. just came to visit family since i was off the past two days, wanted to see the cousins. last night got here like around 930, we just chilled at the cousins house playing call of duty all night till like 3 in the morning haha. the next day, ran some errands with ej, got to drive around in the Si! sexy car ;D after the errands went to kat's house to chill before our movie, we watched UP in 3D! cute movie, i think i was one of the loudest laughers in the theatre! haha. after the movies headed back to ej's house chilled again for a sec then headed to the boiling crab! mmmm, hella good and hella messy. i twittered to cyndy, cuz that's who i thought of when i went there, but she didnt reply, guess she's not following me on her phone or something =( that or she's just busy. but yeah, having hella fun here with the family, went to visit my dad to haha, right now just playing more ps3, suppose to go home 2night, but kinda tired, and its late anways so i'll go home 2mrw morning. oh did i tell you, my BE is hella smart ;D

i love my BE

i love my best ever! aka my bestfriend from another state aka the reason she gets up in the morning ;D haha thanks for again for the chat today Princess. havn't had a dilemma talk from my side with you in awhile , so it was nice to , while i was at work wasting my life away just watching white chicks haha. work was still kinda hectic though i was just watching tv, someone called in and so i had to pick up their groups as well, but me and sharon fong held down the fort pretty well, just had to worry about men's support group and bingo =) haha. today ended my work stretch, i'm off the next two days, right now i have family over from san jose, so i got to go now, soo yeah later days

i quit!

last night we had another casino night, haha. this time at a different venue because it was tbag's birthday. as usual i was drinking and smoking black and milds. then a close friend comes, and see's this side of me, and i try to stop but i couldnt =( she tells me she's disappointed and doesn't like this side of me. so i tell her this. when ever i'm drinking, and get a lil buzzed, i get this craving to smoke, for some reason it makes it easier for me to sober up, idk, it might be all in my head but i dont care. its whatever to me. but how did i get started in smoking in the first place? i'm not to sure, i've tried them occasionally when ever i'm like out at the club and just share one. but then recently some shit has been really stressing out. at first it was cuz of a whole lot of shit, then it narrowed down to just one person making me trip out. how would you feel if you have this mentality that nothing will move to fast and you just like how things are flowing, then all of a sudden it picks up, and you're like wtf? didnt they just say they're not going to do this, not have that..blah blah blah, i dont want to get specific. but in a nutshell its like i've been lied to, got slapped in the face, hella contradictive shit blah, i can't even type. I KNOW ITS NO EXCUSE, but i hella just went to the nearest convience store bought some shit, and started smoking cuz i thought it'd relieve my stress, but then i started doing it more often, wtf, it's so bad, i took the last ones i have and my lighter and shoved them to a friend, and told him not to let him give it back to me, i was hella sad and bought to break down last night, i let a close friend down, and so i started texting ebf to come pick me up, but she lives to far now, and i just wanted to go home..i coudlnt take it anymore..and there was this ONE person i wanted to text and vent to, but i'm still hesitant lately to text her, we seldom talk now, and idk why, i'm having fun, she's having fun, i dont want my drama to f**k everything up..so f**k it.. i really hope i dont go back to my bad habits, i really hope i can forgive all those i let down, i say i'm the same person, i just need to prove it now..later days

NBA Finals

currently watching the nba finals, hoping for an upset =)

busy week so far. monday night had a guys night out at my house, in my garage, we were gambling. playing black jack, 5card poker, and texas hold'em it was fun, played till the early morning, dollar bills were flying back and forth during the dice shooting though! haha, i didnt know how to to play so i didnt play that.

tuesday was my evil best friend gina's house warming/blessing. had hella fun that night to, had a few beers, including shotgunning one with the gang, damn, was i buzzed, made karaoke much more fun though! gina and i hogged the mic the rest of the night when it died down a little bit at the end of the party, auntie wouldnt let me go home cuz she thought i was drunk! i was earlier, but its been hella hours! so i just stayed on the couch singing with gina, we were all up on "a whole new world" haha, and then kept exchanging songs after that till around midnight beforei had to go home and take her bros home to.

wednesday night had another jackson night at my house, this time only came up 4 dollars haha oh well maybe i'll be lucky again tonight =)

yeeeaaaahh, i'm pretty sure i have lots more i'm leaving out, but long story short, my summer has been to a good start =) i'm having so much fun, keeping my mind off things, honestly occasionaly i think about stupid shit, shit i f**ked up with, shit i wish i can have done differently, but in the end i can't complain, gotta live life the way it's handed to you..later days

ABC survey

been working everyday since i got back from vegas! gahh i'm exhausted..off the next two days, woohoo. time to catch up on laundry..been piling up for weeks now, and i need to clean up my room! i've been meaning to organize and throw away shit i dont need, so i can make room for cyndy's mini fridge haha, i still need to clean it, and her microwave to lol =) dont worry, i know you want that back, but for the summer i want live in my room haha. i was on xanga again being bored reading old posts..heres another retro survery , updated answers in parenthesis..

[[..abC survey..]]

[a]ge: 17 on da 22nd of dis month =D (21 years young)
[b]estfriends: so many..but kaye is the one im really close to.. (nichelle, my evil bestfriend ginalyn, cyndy, my bestfriend from another state aka my best ever princess, and the rest of my top friends)
[c]hoice of meat: chicken?..but thatz poultry huh?..oh well.. (beef)
[d]ream date: to have fun! of course..though i never been on one..so wat do i knoe? (as long as its special between us)
[e]xciting adventure: to get out of this house for the summer is adventure itself! (all my adventures are exciting haha)
[f]avorite food: chicken (same)
[g]reatest accomplishment: 4.12 GPA (damn forreals!? 4.12!! haha, i miss that)
[h]appiest day of your life: do u see me wid a gf!?!? (several)
[i]nterests: basketball..KINGS!..going online..watching TV..etc.. (pretty much the same)
[j]ello: "theres always room for jello beotch!!!" (cool whip)
[k]ool aid: i m not much of a kool-aid person (same)
[l]ove: my frends and family of course =D (same)
[m]ost valued: my own life..and the lifes of the ones i love.. (same again)
[n]ame: ralph warren ordona madriaga =D
[o]utfit you wore to school today: didn't go skewl today..duh! (didnt go to school today)
[p]izza topping: pepperoni..and hawaiian (combination without the mushrooms though)
[q]uestion most asked: wtf? lol (idk)
[r]adio station: 99.3 (star 99 kjoy) 94.1 (KHOP) (same , add 93.1)
[s]port: basketball
[t]elevision show: FRIENDS
[u]r favorite song: all my life by kci and jojo
[w]here you live: 209 stockton!
[x]yz: wtf?
[y]ear born: 1987
[z]odiac sign: i have cancer =( haha..jk

catch up time

i'm a try my best to blog about my vegas trip so here i go..

monday-went to stockton airport, started my vlog on the plane, met a nice couple on the plane, then when we landed first thing i did was hit the slot machines at the airport haha. picked up our luggage, then headed to the shuttle to take us to the car rental place. picked up the van, then got lost a little bit on the way to the hotel, rested for a bit, then headed for dinner. ate ate this chinese restaurant, then after hit first half of the strip! got my drink on with nichelle, buzzin on the way back to the hotel, bought more drinks for the hotel. that's night one.

tuesday-brunch at the buffet. hit the second half of the strip, hotel hopping, and shopping at the miracle mile shops. revisited different spots on the strip, went souvenir shopping, ate dinner, then headed out to more spots. didnt get to visit other spots like fremont street , cuz we were running out of time. around 12am, headed to henderson, nv. to pick up my friend who i met about 4-5 years ago online on MSO =) finally got to meet her in person! my best friend from another state! my best ever. picked her up, went to walmart, then went back to our hotel room and chilled for a bit till i took her home around 3. on the way home, she took me around suburbia, it was really cool, got to see the local side of lasvegas/henderson, got to see all these stores like smitihs, and vons, which we dont have here in cali, according to her its like our ralph's and longs drugs i guess. she took me on top of this hill where it has a beauitful view, of like the whole strip miles away, it was so pretty, i didnt have my camera though! fail! by the time i got back to my hotel after taking her home it was 5am, and the sun was out! haha headed straight for bed.

wednesday-flight was at 1245pm, so we had to hurry and get ready. returned the van , then ate at the airport at CPK! haha, played more slots for the last time before we boarded the plane. plane departure took forever this time! fell asleep waiting for it..woke up in the air, then landed in stockton around 2pm..picked up by my dad, took my friends home, then took a nap at home then headed to gina's house to upload pics and give her and aleena's pasalubong. and that was that. i vlogged everything, so i still need to edit them and post them up! i was just watching them all, and thers a lot of raw vegas footage! so sit tight. =)

back from vegas!

so many blogs to read, so many pics to upload so many videos to edit for vlog, so sit tight everyone..i'll be back and ready in no time! or maybe just a tad long time haha.

best ever! finally! haha =)

blogging real quick before church

havn't updated you guys in a while, so i'ma try. starting with friday, i was up at 430am to head to the bride's place and take pictures as she's getting ready and what not. i was hired as the camera man for gina's auntie's wedding. i had my video cam and digi cam just running around everywhere! so exhausting but i had fun. so yeah the ceremony was at 9, then the reception was at china palace at 1130 , o0o0weee was the reception fun. line dancing and getting my dance on with the old folks, and some young folks, lol. around 330 left to gina's house to rest cuz there was still an afterparty at the bride and grooms house! at ginas house, we were just uploading all the pics and videos, burning them on cds so we can bring it to the house. at the after party , we ate again, and chilled outside mostly, was teaching gina's kid how to ride a bike, wasn't going to well, but i tried haha. i had a beer earlier maybe that's why, haha. and then i had a craving to smoke, so i was for awhile, and i was twittering at the same time, then gina comes outside and is like wtf you doing!? so i stopped, haha. i love my evil bestfriend though, she takes care of me. left the party around 1130 headed home, cuz i had work at 7 the next morning.

so saturday, was my sister's birthday. after work, i went home, and we had a lil family thing, with a few friends, after we all ate, everyone went to diff parties, cuz there was like 3 last night! but i just went to one, my friends graduation party, drank over there, i was taking care of nichelle, cuz she could barely walk, and i had to take her to the bathroom so she can throw up. i was dancing in the garage, then saw her, i had to stop having fun to take care of my bestfriend. but then what irriated me more, was my sister gathering all this attention, cuz its her birthday and all and her friends wanted her to drink. i didnt want her to but whatever. ler her have fun, then she started crying and shit, at first everyone thought it was funny or whatever cuz she's buzzed and what not. but then she started doing and saying stupid shit, to the point where was kicking shit around in the backyard, cuz she wouldnt listen. i tried giving her water..but that didnt work, she wouldnt take it..so i told my cousin to carry her to the car, and we just bounced.

hmm, today nothing much happened yet, earlier i just dropped off gina some lunch and picked up my camera battery i left at her place. went back home to get ready for church, and here i am blogging right now and catching up on all my online communties. i'm off today, woohoo, going to vegas 2mrw!!! i cannot wait! gahhhhhhhhhhh!!! later days

finals over!

well more like final over, not finals, haha i had my final today at 8am, thanks again for my evil bestfriend ginalyn for waking me up today, i knew i was going to need it after we went drinking at BJ's last night. anyways, final went good, it was a group final, so we shared answers haha, but we did pull out a group effort. got a b+ on my paper which i bullshitted mostly, but i did do my research! i think that's what paid off, i had a good topic. after class, went straight home, took a nap, then went to run some errands, after all the errands, went back home, and now we're watching Taken again, good movie, but this is the 3rd time watching it now, everyone keeps wanting to watch it! tonight going to watch the baskeball game, lets go nuggets! and i think that's pretty much it. going to a wedding 2mrw! offical photographer=)

and heres another xanga survey and again my new anwers will be in parenthesis .. enjoy =)

-Name: Ralph Warren Ordona Madriaga
-Nicknames: Ralphie by most girls...
-Today’s Date: 2-13-04 (5/21/09)
-Birthdate: 7-22-87
-Birthplace: San Jose
-Current Age: 16 (21)
-Current Location: Stockton

[ON THE OUTSIDE]
-Height: i forgot...itz been since middleskewl fitness thingy where we check all dat sh!t (5'5")
-Weight: same as height...but im small...and not that tall...does that help?..haha (110)
-Hair Color: black
-Eye Color: Dark Brown
-Nationalities: Pinoy
-Shoe Size: 7 1/2 and 8 (8)
-What kind of clothes do you like: ne thing nice and casual (as long as it's comfy)
-What kind of jewelry do you wear: necklaces (just my earrings)
-Shirt Size: M or L (m)
-Favorite Colors to Wear: blue... although my favorit color is yellow (brown, gray, blue, white)
-Do you wear a belts: yea (yes)
-Has anybody ever said you look like a celebrity: nope (no)
-Do you look the same way you did five years ago: nope (no)

[ON THE INSIDE]

-Most Common Mood: depressed (hyper)
-Current Thoughts: valentines tomorro... (sigh) i dont have one (i'm full)
-Best Feeling: Happy and loved.. getting good grades of course.. winning too (being thought of)
-Worst Feeling: not loved and getting yelled at for no reason (being ignored)
-Do you like who you are: sometimes no...majortiy of the time i hate myself (yes i do)
-Do you like who you were then/who you are now: cant say at the moment (yes)
-Would you say that your life is difficult: all the time (at times)
-Do many people know of you: i guess (yeah i guess)
-Do many people KNOW you: hmm... just a few (uh huh)
-Are you shy / outgoing: both.. mostly shy (getting out of my shy side)
-Are you calm / hyper: hyper (hyper)
-Are you sad / happy: sad most of the time (happy most of the time now)
-Are you mad / sensible: are these opposites? hmm...sensible (sensible)
-Are you lazy / energetic: hmmx im both..lol (both)
-Are you stressed / relaxed: stressed (both)
-Are you nice / mean: im nice of course (nice =D)
-Are you understanding or not: understanding (understanding)
-Are you trustworthy or not: trustworthy of course (very)
-Are you a good / bad friend: good of course (great friend)
-Are you smart / dumb: smart.. dumb at times (smart buy lazy)
-Are you loving / hating: loving (lover not a fighter)
-Are you fun / boring: fun fo sho (fun)

[FAVORITES]
-Movie:theres hella movies...umm...mulan is one (all the retro disney movies)
-Singer: LINKIN PARK (your mom sings pretty good)
-Song: all my life by kci and jojo (same)
-Actor: iono.. adam sandler? (your mom is a pretty good actor)
-Actress: all the fine ones ( britanny snow )
-Cartoon: spongebob squarepants,, fairly odd parents.. and DBZ (family guy, etc.)
-Cartoon Character: goku..patrick..cosmo ( stewie griffin)
-Author: Stephen King...William Shakespeare (idk)
-Animal:raccoons dont ask me why ( stuffed )

-Smell: girls of course..haha.. I smell good sometimes.. ryte after I take a shower (fruity lotions and perfumes, fresh bread, freshly cut grass, haha)
-Food: chinese & filipino food...mcdonalds and jack & the box (chicken)
-Drink: sunny delight and pepsi (raspberry ice tea!)
-Hangout: Whimsey...at skewl...in front of the library...we have out table we kick it at (my room haha or cyndy's room watching youtube =) )

[SEX / RELATIONSHIPS]
-Do you have a boyfriend / girlfriend: never had a gf (sigh) (nope)
-If not, do you have a crush: yes (not at the moment)
-Name of your crush: ask me.. ill tell you (dont ask me, lol)
-What’s so special about your crush: she’s nice (well if i did have one, i bet she'd be super special)
-Who are you "talkin" to: no one (nobody)
-Are you flirty:shy (when i'm comfortable)
-Are you a virgin: whats this word mean?.. jk.. yes (yes i am)
-Age of First Kiss: still to come (19)
-Have you ever cried for the opposite sex: yea.. ima crybaby (true statement)
-Do you have a "type" of person you always go after:yup yup (ehhh)
-Would you rather be dumped / the dumper: I duno we gunna end ne ways (neither)
-Would you rather have a relationship /a"hookup":relationship. I want sumthin to last (relationship)
-Have you ever liked your best friend of the opposite sex: well yeh hehe (to a certain extent)
-Do you want to get married: of course (someday)
-Do you want kids: yup yup (someday)
-Do you think that you have met the person you will end up marrying: hmm no one noez yet (not yet)
-How many people have you kissed: zero that meant nothing (just 3)
-How many people have broken your heart: one (a handful)
-Do you pick people by their looks / personality: both (confidence)
-Have you ever kissed one of your friends: ? (yes)

LAST PERSON OF THE OPPOSITE SEX...
-You Touched: dunt remember (myself)
-You Talked to Online: Joanna aka jojo.. hello! hehe (idr, havnet been on aim in awhile)
-You Hugged: kate I think (sha sha)
-You Kissed: never (secret)
-You instant messaged: jojo (idr)
-You Yelled At: my sister (most likey the same lol)
-You Slept with: I sleep solo (secret)
-You Made cry: I duno (idk)

HAVE YOU EVER...
- Been kissed: yes
- How many times: couple times
- Done Drugs: naw (once)
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos:no (nope)
- Been on stage: yea (yes)
- Dumped Someone: no (yes)
- Been in a car accident:yeh.. but not a “major” one tho.. juss a small one (nothing life threating)
- Been in love: yes.. but I regret it ( i have)

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
- Cried: last 42 hours.. yes (no)
- Helped someone: yea (yes)
- Bought something: nope (yes)
- Gotten sick: no (yes)
- Gone to the movies: Naw (nope)
- Gone out for dinner: naw (yes)
- Said, "I love you": naw (nope)
- Written a real letter: naw (damn its been awhile)
- Talked to an ex: dunt have one (last week)
- Missed an ex: dunt have one (bleh)
- Talked to someone you have a crush on: yup yup (maybe?)
- Missed someone:no (always)
-Hugged someone:no (no)

xanga retro survery #1

first one is from 9/16/04 .. updated answers will be in parenthesis..enjoy =)

BASiiCSZ

[»] name: Ralph Warren Ordona Madriaga
[»] where is your favorite place to shop: newhere..as long as i stay fitted ;) haha..old navy da shiz and all other stores in da mall (hollister, pacsun, macy's)
[»] any peircinqs: nope (two, left ear lobe and cartilage)
[»] what are you most scared of: sometimes the truth..if u knoe wat i mean.. (failure)
[»] what are you listeninq to riqht now: my tv (my tv)
[»] where do you want to qet married: a nice big church. ( same)
[»] how many buddies are online riqht now: 23 (not online)
[»] what is one thinq you would chanqe about yourself: Be more commited, prove others wat i really can do.. (to stop being lazy, stop putting myself down and look at the bright side of things)

HAVE Y0U EVER

[»] qiven anyone a bath: not yet ;) ( my lil brother maybe)
[»] bunqee jumped: no (nope)
[»] skinny dipped: no (nope)
[»] ever been in love: kinda sorta maybe? (yes)
[»] ever cryed to qet yourself out of trouble: no (no)
[»] cried when someone died: yes of course (yes)
[»] lied: yes (yes)
[»] fallen for your best friend: not really, some say i do..but no0o0o (bleh)
[»] used someone: i dont think so (not intentionally)
[»] done somethinq you reqret: yep (yes)

CURRENT

[»] clothes: basketball shooting pants and a white shirt (pjs and a white tee)
[»] music: the TV haha (none)
[»] annoyance: Boredom (hungry)
[»] smell: nothing, i have a cold! (no)
[»] favorite music artist: linkin park is a group haha..but artist? uhmm..bryan adams (same plusmore)
[»] desktop picture: a toyota celica..YAYUH!! (sarah geronimo)
[»] book your readinq: "thousand cranes" (linguistics text book)
[»] CD in your CD player: slow jam mix (mix hip hop cd)
[»] dvd in your dvd player: darkness falls (robot chicken)

LAST PERS0N

[»] you touched: i dont remember (idr)
[»] huqqed: kaye at the mall i think (cyndy friday night)
[»] you imed: kenneth (ginalyn)
[»] you yelled at: i forgot (idr)
[»] you kissed: never =/(secret)

ARE Y0U

[»] understandinq: yeah (very)
[»] open minded: sure (i can be)
[»] insecure: sometimes (sometimes)
[»] interestinq: oh, yes (yup)
[»] random: all the time (all the time)
[»] hunqry: yes (yes)
[»] smart: not all the time unfortunately =/ (when i can be)
[»] moody: yesh (uh huh)
[»] hardworkinq: wen im in the mood (i can be)
[»] orqanized: no! (sometimes)
[»] healthy: not really..sometimes? haha (yah)
[»] shy: somtimes (at times)
[»] difficult: idk.. (yee)
[»] attractive: ;) my fan signs should answer that haha (you tell me)
[»] messy: ewww..wat do u mean?? ( very )
[»] responsible: at times (yes)
[»] obsessed: hmm.. (no)
[»] anqry: a lot (not right now)
[»] sad: a lot (not right now)
[»] dissapointed: at times (at times)
[»] happy: not a lot (majority of the time)
[»] hyper: wen i have too much soda (yeeee)
[»] trustinq: yup (as always)
[»] talkative: sure
[»] leqal: one more year

RAND0M

[»] in the morninq i am: sleepy (sleepy)
[»] love is: lyke wind..u feel itz there but u cant see it ( like diarrhea, just can't hold it in)
[»] i dream about: her lately ( i hardly remember my dreams)

WHiiCH iiS BETTER

[»] coke or pepsi: Pepsi. (pepsi)
[»] flowers or candy: flowers (flowers)
[»] tall or short: not to tall short girls are kute haha (short)
[»] eminems or skittles: skittles (skittles)
[»] aim or phone: cellphone (text)
[»] electric or bass: electric (bass)
[»] resturaunt or at home: restaurant (restaurant
[»] movie theaters or an all around at home movie: movies. (home)

D0 Y0U

[»] sit on the internet all night waitinq for someone to im you: yeah! haha (not anymore)
[»] wish you were a member of the oppostie sex: haha yup..but jus for a day (no)
[»] cry because of somethinq someone says to you: yup (haha)

NUMBER 0F

[»] of hearts you`ve broke: i dunno (idk)
[»] of tiqht freinds: a few ( a few)
[»] of cds you own: dunno not a lot..lyke 20 at least..i DL music ( alot)
[»] of scars on your body: idk (none)

FiiNAL QUESTii0NS

[»] do you like fillinq these out: wen im bored (bored)
[»] gold or silver: gold (gold)
[»] what was the last movie you saw in theaters: Exorcist the beginnings (xmen origins)
[»] favorite cartoon: spongebob (family guy)
[»] could you live without your computer: oh heck no (not to long)
[»] would you color your hair: yes (temp)
[»] could you ever qet off the computer: yeah (yes)
[»] hablas espanol: si .. mucho bueno (que?)

my feet are killing me!

haha, thought my title sounds like what a girl would say, but its true! been walking around all day at work today. started work at 3. but before work went to church then the mall as usual on my sundays. at work had a huge debate/arguement whatever you want to call it with one of my coworkers about basketball. it was really loud in the activity room, coworkers were pulling me away, cuz all surprised cuz they never saw me like that, haha, it was crazy, yet fun. just let me get my opinion out, then we all good. the whole kings/lakers issue is old, but never dies, haha. on a lighter note, can't wait to we leave to vegas! about a week to go, so excited, you dont even know. well its really hot, just like yesterday, this weekend has been in the 100s and its only may! june and july will be a b!tch. well i'm a cut this short today, gonna go watch taken on bluray! sweeeeeet. later days

what a week

the past week has been a roller coaster. emotionally and physically. i'm exhausted. i'm relieved that's coming to an end. and happy as well. yesterday we had this even at work, and i had so much fun, i love my coworkers who i'm glad to call them as friends rather than coworkers, not all my coworkers share the same relationship i have with them, and i'm close to a few of them, and i love it. a few days before was my best's 21st birthday, and we went out to celebrate at dave and buster's. at the bar i really opened up to her, and i was good and bad. i said a lot of shit that i really thought i was going to keep to myself , but after saying it made me realize what kind of shithole i was in. she made it clear that i should fix it though, so i tried. i planned everything in my head on what to say and do. DIDNT COME OUT THE WAY I WANTED. i fucked up. big time, i'm jeopardizing a friendship with a really close friend. and the days were counting down where i wouldnt be able to see this person for awhile, let alone if she'll even respond or reply to my messages. but benefit of the doubt, as long as i do what was right, things will come out smoothly. it was hard, but i did respect her wishes. i honestly didnt do what i did to annoy or whatever. that's how i am. i know they might like be known as my bestfriends, but i never opened this up, but i think i can say i have 3 "best" friends, one that is known obviously, and the other two, i can say just unfolded. wether you agree or not, you have become one of my bestfriends now. i didnt mean to give you a certain kind of attention that would of pushed you away. i in fact love to be on my phone, i message the few same ppl daily, i didnt mean anything by it. with that said, i was worried that it was coming to an end. but i know i keep saying this, but i can't stress it enough, that i DO want to start over. i want to push all that shit that ppl talk about, that ppl spread rumors about, fuck all that, and just start over. back to the day where we can just sit down eat yogurt and talk about ethics. as much as i miss all the other stuff. i WANT it to be just like that. a simple close/bestfriend kind of relationship, nothing more nothing less. i'm also glad i went out last night, for your last night. ha. let me tell you, i had soo much fun. young crowd, so i did what i can, lmao. it feels good to get out of your shell though, and just have fun! maybe a month ago, i'd still be the person, who would be sitting down in the corner, drinking soda, and watch everybody have fun, nope, not anymore. i'm excited to just have fun! woohoo! sham woohoo! lol. well i got to get ready now, its my brothers first communion today, and then i have work. later days

running smoothly

i typed a whole bunch just now, then deleted it..i was insecure on what i wrote, so i rather talk to this person directly to share what's on my mind these past few days. sorry other readers, later days.

happy mothers day

had an interesting night, text messages and tweets all through my sleep, i'd wake up once in awhile to reply to them, haha. its ok though, i enjoy doing so =) anways, i was off today, so that was good, went to church with the familia, then ate at grand buffet. oh man, i sure think i got my moneys worth, i took hella food, hella seafood! mmmm had like two plates of oysters, crab, fish, shrimp, you name it. and dim sum! it reminded me of cyndy, that's why when i was getting food i saw the sign for dim sum, and i was like hey! haha, after eating, we went to modesto's mall, when shopping for my mom. i got her a matching guess wallet and purse. after her, i went shopping for myself, just got a shirt at A&F though..that's all didnt want to spoil myself today lol. after the mall went home, worked on my linguistics paper for a little bit, and right now i'm watching american dad and contemplating on what to do next..later days

am i trippin??

if someone deletes your picture off their myspace after it being there for awhile in a certain album, then all of a sudden, just my pic with this person is deleted and the rest of the pics in that album are gone, and the only reason they give is .. "oh its cuz i was ugly in that pic" and mind you this album has been up for more than month , and this person has the nerve to say i'm trippin off of it!? i was just asking what happened.. daaaaaaaaaa heeckkkkk man.

anyways, my day: saturday morning chores consisted of running errands for my mother dear, picking up food, buying towels at sears cuz the last day sale, doesn't sound much right, but having to do that right when you wake up, and you have to go work in a few hours. i agreed cuz i thought i had plenty of time, but turns out i had to wait for the food to be prepared etc etc. well yeah finally got that done with barely enough time go get ready for work, didnt even have time to eat! got to work, clocked in at 12:25 i think, and i had a group at 12:30 "medication education" group went smoothly, it was just one of those days i felt good after a group. doesn't happen all the time, but often enough to say that i love my job. =) a resident said to me today, i like your groups cuz they keep us mentally prepared. and i was like thanks, i'm glad to have served a purpose here, haha. i love some of my residents. keyword is some. hahah. after work, headed straight home , cuz my auntie was by herself watching my bros and cousin, cuz everyone else took my grandma to the airport cuz she's leaving for the PI .. lucky, i want to go so bad! but its alright, going to vegas at the end of the month, so i'm excited for that =) later days

sleeping beauty

i had the last two days off and back to work today. bleh. my two day break was fun, yet productive. did my laundry on wednesday, and pretty much spent my whole day at home, havn't been at home for like a long period of time lately haha, i've been coming home at different times this whole weekend which has affected my sleeping schedule, but i can't complain, i had a blast this weekend. thanks. yesterday, was my payday, but first i went to class, then picked up my check, then went to the bank to deposit it..didnt want to go home after that, but everyone was busy! cyndy was studying, nichelle was sick, and ginalyn and i was suppose to do something together, but she wanted to wait till the afternoon, so my whole morning was boring, i went home and watched robot chicken ha. that afternoon, met up with cyndy, studied at my house, glad to have amazed her with my ps3 and blu ray, and my dog, and just simply chillaxin on our family couch =) hmm what else, i guess that's it for the past few days, hopefully today will be great. TGIF. later days

robot chicken

i use to say i hate my life often, hate is such a strong word dont you think? more like strongly dislike my life" right? oh well, but i can honestly say that recently i can say the opposite. i can see through ppl's bullshit, i know who my true friends are and its no surprise they're the same friends from the start. and i like how the fact of growing on some of these friendships. yes we knew each other for a long time, but to get to the point, where we just don't care about what the world has to through at us. through thick and thin, we'll always have that special relationship, that only you and i will know. let ppl talk, who gives a f**k. on another note, i love my best, she really cares about me though sometimes most ppl are oblivious to what ever i try to put out, i sometimes really try to make her and whoever understand what i feel.. thanks..

i have a wierd sleeping schedule now, haha, thanks, you know who you are =)

ps. i'm hungry going to go do a taco bell run or something..later days

cheesecake factory!

finally went to the cheesecake factory! didnt have any cheescake though! haha, all good, the food was good, the alcohol was good, haha thanks. but yeah, on the drive home, finally had the talk that i wanted for a while now. it was really nice, and happy to finally clear things up. ppl will talk no matter what, but f**k what you hear, as long as i know what is happening between us, then that's all that matters. like what it says on top of my page..you think you know, but you have no idea. and please please please, dont butt into my personal life, if i'm comfortable letting you know, then i will..i blog here for a reason..dont constantly call and message me expecting to read me like a book. hmmm yeah, i'm in the library right now, just got done uploading pics, you should go comment one or two, or three =)

ps: my car is black not silver! haha oh man that was hilarious.

*sigh*

finally back online! and being able to read her blogs..i'm happy and sad at the same time the past few days. especially after last night, i dont know what to think..i know its hard for me, and i can only imagine if its hard for you to. i honestly respect your views though, of wanting know what's in store for the future, not disappointing your mom, not getting to attached and watch it just get pulled away from right under you. and also my perspective, how i really dont want anything to change either..i LOVE how it is, but there is still the side of me, that want's something more. but scared to directly tell her..i can only think she knows how i feel deep inside. i'm shy, but she keeps me sane. i get comfortable as the mintues past, as the hours past, i get so comfortable. like i told her, i would never see this coming, but thankful it has happened. its like i keep asking myself, should i ask her for just one chance? i vow to not disappoint you. but at the same time i can't ask her that, its going to put so much pressure, and that alone can jeopardize our friendship. and i can never forgive myself if that were to happen..but for now, i'm keeping it how it is..and when she reads this, maybe she can shed more light on it..i'm not however going to get my hopes up..happiness is not to much to ask for, but that's all i want..

happy thoughts

i'm happy how things went. i really didnt know how it would turn out, letting my feelings out has always been a problem for me. i get scared. i hesitate. i think way to much. if i have something to say, i'll usually say it, it might take me awhile, but it makes me feel better when i at least let them know. i dont like the "what if" feeling..rejection is one of the worst feelings but that's life. but i can honestly say that i am more than grateful to still be able to continue our relationship without anything changing =) for the past few weeks i've grown this attraction which was brought about numerous factors. like when ppl mention your name, or when they say "aww, you two look cute together", i blush, i stutter, i dont keep my stories straight. why? its cuz you give me butterflies. not to sound cheesey, but you give me this special feeling..like i have a purpose to live, lol. i see myself being really happy with you, and i'd be very determined to treat you with the upmost respect that you deserve. but at the same time i think about the bad side to all this. ohhh we live in two different worlds, two different genres of lifestyle, way out of my league kinda thing, who even knew we'd get so close. but at the same time i was willing to make it work. and at the same time i didnt want anything to happen, cuz i didnt want to lose a good friend like you said. thank you setting the facts. i understand when you said you really want to know what's in store for the future. and honestly, i did think about that..it was on my negative list, ha. i didnt want to get to attached then all of a sudden its gone..i also kept thinking about, that i'd never be good enough for you anways..i dont suit your requirements or taste, or watever, your preferences..but you did clear up stuff, and i do agree with all of them. i like how we can both relate to each other, we can understand each others jokes, and talk about the past, as if we did grew up together..yeah, i know you can't be labeled as n******* #2, its not right, you dont really need a label, as long as we both know what we have, then that's good enough for me. but yeah, i know we talked about this all last night, this is just me killing time at home, expressing my thoughts in blog form, lol. thanks for everything, and everything in the future as well.

forever and a day

last night was cool. after work, cyndy invited me to her hall governent meeting..it was pretty interesting..made me miss my meetings back in sac when i was fundraising chair for samahang pilipino. newho, after the meeting, i headed back home, cuz she had another meeting to attend to, but its cool, i went to nichelle's house just to kick it for a little bit. went home, had my late evening/early morning text and twitter session with cyndy haha. she says i mock her tweets, but i say i was born first ;D

today i had off. originally planned to go sf to celebrate a "special friend"'s birthday, but since we no longer talking..its not happening..oh well..her lost not mines..i'm not going to let that shit bother me anymore..time to move on to bigger things..i like how things are progressing at the moment..i'm having fun! i've been going out, hanging out with my dope friend cyndy lately has been rewarding..i'm hanging out with her right now as i blog this! haha. its 1230 in the morning, but that's how we roll, haha. anyways back to my day. today nichelle picked me up and we went shopping..first at the great mall in milpitas then vintage faire in modesto..yes, we drove around like crazy, just to satisfy her shopping needs haha...when i got home, left again to go meet up with ms. liddoC here, we're in the library right now, and earlier we were looking back at our xangs and other old sites, it was fun! we both were embarassed on how we use to write and stuff, but made us think about the past. it was cool, she says her life is boring, i like to think otherwise. =) .. right now i'm just sipping my dr. pepper and eating some honey bbq fritos..thanks cyndy, i'll pay you back..you've done so much.. can't wait for 2mrw to watch the xmen premiere! thanks again for asking me..hmm guess that's it for now..later days

asparagus festival

so i finally went to the asparagus festival this year, for the first time after living in stockton for how long!? church first this morning, then after church went to go pick up cyndy , when i got her, went straight to the asparafest, walked around browsing all the vendors first. then bought our food tickets to get some food, first thing i tried was the asparagus steak sandwhich..pretty good. after we ate, watched a few performances, it was nice. after that hungry for more asparagus! haha so me and cyndy got some deep fried asparagus, mmmmmmmm! after that walked around some more, saw some pretty cool things, after a few hours , maybe about 5, finally headed out..before we left i bought more deep fried asparagus for gina, she was at chuck e. cheese , so i stopped by there real quick to drop it off, after that we went to jamba juice. then barnes and nobles and just read several books in the humor section while we were drinking our jamba haha. and in this one book i found out that it is ILLEGAL to wiggle when you dance in Stockton, CA. wtf right!? hahah! after all that , took cyndy home..and now i'm at home with nothing to do haha, i had a fun day, been awhile since i had a fun day.

saaaaaawoooooooop!

today went to class, after class went to target to pick up some soda for the nacho sale at work today..after getting the soda then going to the bank, headed to work, even though i was off today, i needed to help out with our fundraiser, cuz i'm part of the activity committee, we did pretty good, made more than 100 bucks, but that's not subtracting all the expenses we used, but i think we made good profit. after work, went straight home, cuz everyone has class till night today..boo. took a nap, went on a taco bell run, then now i'm watching the nba playoffs..

random question of the day..have you ever wondered if your dollar bill has been a stripper's buttcrack?? just a thought haha

you look kinda cute..in that polka dot bikini

best ever! do you know the title of that song? cuz i have no idea haha..

today i worked from 7-330..before work i went to mcdonalds to get myself a mocha..got to work..and as i about to enter the activity room, i put my coffee on top of my work binder so i can get my keys out to open the door..right when i opened the door..i sadly watched in slow motion my coffee fall to the floor..SPLASH!! all over the place..and over my white vans =( what a way to start the day..and i havn't even clocked in yet! hahaha. after work went to the bank, cuz i just got paid! then went to kfc to get some food, ate while watching some icarly haha, then took a nap, after i woke up..watched more tv, and its really hot to stay at home, but everyone is busy so i just played with my lil bros..just got done cooking them some egg for dinner haha, that's all i know how to cook..have the next two days off!

filippy floppies

so yeah, today i was suppose to have class at 9..but i just woke up like 30 minutes ago..haha so i missed it..i had a crazy night..celebrating 420! bad i know, but yeah, all i had was a headache and felt hella sick like i wanted to throw up..and hella emo status for some reason =( i kept reminiscing about past bullshit..and how i always ask the question..is happiness to much to ask for? idk, i beat myself up about alot of shit, even its not my fault..i think to much , as most people would say. so yeah that's part of why i had a hard time sleeping last night..and waking up late today..i have work later at 3, so i hope i'll be and ready by then haha. tomorrow is payday, thank goodness..i'm broke..i havn't been broke in so long, it feels wierd asking to borrow money from my mother haha, when its usually the other way around.

4/20 hitler's birthday!

o0o0o0weeee! lets get high today! hahaha not..or maybe ;D

i had an interesting day last night..i had work 1230-8 had hella paper work, so that took most of time..other than that watching batman forever with the residents haha. after work, went home first but then my room was so hot, so i was craving some icecream or something..so i went to go get cyndy, then we went to coldstone..mmmmmmmmmm cheesecake fantasy. after that went to ian's house, played the wii fit .. hella fun! haha i want one now for my wii.. theres a video posted up on youtube.. just search username "liddoc" and its the recent video, or the one that says "wii" on the title, haha go look it up its pretty funny. and if you havn't already watch the video that's on my myspace right now..its like the day in life with me hahah, how random i can be..ok that's pretty much it for now..no class or work today, hopefully something fun is down to happen haha.

stop being such a babae

yesterday for work i got to on a fishing trip with the residents! so exciting..i never been fishing to! it was me and keith, and we took 5 residents, just to oak grove and tried our luck, which wasn't really good, since we didnt catch anything after being there for 4 hours! it was cool though, i got to learn how to cast and reel. one time as i was casting, my hook got stuck in the tree haha! after our trip headed back to work, and when i got there i was hellaaaaaa tired i just wanted to go home and sleep, luckily there was only one hour of work left! haha, after work went straight home, actually i want to jack n the box first, cuz i was hungry, then after i ate while watching tv. took a quick nap. woke up, went to walmart cuz my brother was promised to get a new bike..shooot i never got a bike when i was young. booo. haha. they get all the cool stuff nowadays..ps3!? which i use majority of the time haha. after walmart when to meet up with cyndy. chilled at her dorm first, then checked out this "arabian nights" that was on campus haha, it was alright..then cyndy showed me around campus (univesity of the pacific) it's a really nice campus, and then we entered this nice ass building called the univesity center (uc) and i was like..am i allowed in here?? hahah. ate there for a lil bit..then headed back to cyndy's room..and we just chilled there til like 2am..watching youtube videos..haha we're dope. until next time..tootlelooo..

twitter!

ohhhh maaan, i totally just zoned out on blogging lately..not intentionally..i just simply forgot..and now that my laptop is up and running again, it'd be more easier to remind myself ! uhmm easter was cool, family from yuba city came down.. hella food .. hella full .. haha that's all i remember.

i recently joined twitter! its so cool, you should sign up if you havn't already.. and if you already have one, follow me! "cralpnga" its fun, cuz you can post updates on when and what your doing..and everyone who's "following" you knows whats up! and vice versa..and i signed up to recieve updates on my phone, so that's whats even cooler! taking advangtage of my unlimited text haha. newho, today i started my 5 day work stretch..blehhh.. gonna blog more soon!

bad day at work

yesterday was crazy, i got yelled by two nurses; a cna and a licensed one, a social worker, and got lectured by my boss, and the DON. (director of nursing.) gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, it was so frustrating, cuz i didnt do anything wrong..yes i made a bad judgement call, but damn i've barely been there a year, and that was the first time i was put into that kind of situation..well i've been involved in several "code greens" (when a resident becomes assaultive) shiitt, i was even part of one, when i was the one being assaulted, but yeterday they were blowing shit out of proportion..i said my apologies for making a rookie mistake, but damn, give cut me some slack..and give me your apologies for making me feel like shit the whole day..aannyways, if you really want to know what exactly happened, let me know..haha cuz i'm pretty sure i can blog about it..but that'd be to much to read if you really dont want to hear about it..

today is thursday, one more day left for break, today's my day off, and guess what!? i'm here at home, its raining.. dont really fee like going out..gay gay gay. maybe its time to just sit back and contemplate on the meaning of life haha, tootles